Wizard Needs Food, Badly

Yeah.

Hi.

Kataron here.

That's me!

I think...

I'd like to say that it was a fairly uneventful day today, but it wasn't really...At least, not class-wise. First period, I had a calculus test. I probably did pretty bad on it. I was playing and beating Metroid Prime last night instead of studying, so yeah. Second period, I presented a thing on Hamlet. went...Not badly...Yeah. I like doing verbal presentations, 'cause I can rant and make jokes and the class laughs. Good feeling. Yeah. Programming was uneventful. I checked Evil Avatar to read the latest in gaming news. Then I got bored and started looking for screenshots of various games.

Man...

Age of Empires 3 is gonna kick some serious ass. The graphics are groin-grabbingly orgasmic. Simply incredible. Plus, it's Age of Empires! :D Can't wait for that title...

But yeah, us programming nerds decided that RTS games need a new function. We were talking about how games like Age of Empires should have customizable formations. No, not stupid formations like Box and Line. REAL formations. You set them up in a grid. So the archers always march behind the footmen, and stuff like that. We were also thinking that there should be a feature so that the units will actually march down roads. We've all tried to follow the roads, and we've all been distracted and side-tracked. Wouldn't it be nifty if they just marched along it? And I don't mean they just follow it...I mean the formations thin, becomes more narrow, and the units march so that they fit the road (roughly, depending on the type of road), and keep going like that. Yeah. Mitch and I were talking about how we could possibly do something like that as a Final Project for programming, a unit formation program...With a nice GUI...You know, a cool-looking grid, with drag and drop units...Yeah. Technically, the entire grid could be done on a single array...Were we so inclined. It'd be interesting. Yeah.

Let's talk more about gaming, shall we? WE SHALL!

Oh, how we shall...Thank you, Evil Avatar, for your great gaming news!

So apparently, there could be a World of Warcraft Expansion coming soon. Northrend (the name of the expansion) should add new races, new items, and an entire new continent to explore. Unfortunately, this info was gained through a leaked press release...So it's not really confirmed. It could be real, it could be a gamer-made hoax. I personally think they should worry about fixing their systems now...I mean, the game goes down all the goddamn time. Yeah...Fix that, THEN worry about an expansion. :)

ooo! The NEXT installment of Heroes of Might and Magic has been released! Number five in the series, not counting the Chronicles games and such. The screenshots look good...Only four of them on the site I found, but still...Good. I've enjoyed the Heroes of Might and Magic series for ages. I was so depressed when I found out that number four wouldn't run on my shitty computer :( I own a copy of it, but yeah. Good game. I can't wait to see what improvements they've made now!

Yeah...Now I've got news of gamers gone too far. Apparently, a 41 year-old man was stabbed to death. Over a sword on an MMORPG. Yeah...That's pretty bad. Apparently, they won a 'Dragon Sabre' from some sort of contest or something, and the one guy got it. The stabber. He LENT it to the other guy, and the guy sold it. For real money. Kinda fucked up. Then there was something about how the other guy was gonna get part of the money, but was impatient and stabby stabby. He even reported it stolen after learning of the transaction, but it was virtual, so the police didn't give a flying fuck. Interesting topic, though...I mean, if you're not gonna bust someone for stealing something virtual, and selling it for real money, then how can you punish hackers, who merely steal the information? They're not selling it and making money off of it. That'd make 'em crackers, I believe. Not entirely sure on the differentiations. Yeah...But yeah, that's taking it too far. But I have a feeling this will come up again sometime in the future...Not necessarily the stabbing, but at least the whole theft of something on a MMORPG.

Moving on...

So apparently, Hillary Clinton is a dumb bitch. She recently commented on how bad games like GTA are. *quotes the quote on Evil Avatar*

'Violent video games such as Grand Theft Auto, in which players peddle drugs and steal cars to become top gangster, have been condemned by Hillary Clinton as a "major threat" to morality.

"Children are playing a game that encourages them to have sex with prostitutes and then murder them," the US senator and former first lady said.

"This is a silent epidemic of media desensitisation that teaches kids it's OK to diss people because they are a woman, they're a different colour or they're from a different place."

Yeah...It's a fucking video game. Oh, no! Video game violence! Oh, shut the fuck up. You wanna point the finger? Point the finger at the fuckwit parents that are buying these games for their children. They're to blame. It's not rated whatever it's rated simply for kicks. There's warnings and shit, if the parents aren't going to look into that, then fuck them. But yeah, I loved what the guy that posted it said at the end, in reply to her comment. *quoates*

'Funny, the message I got from Grand Theft Auto was that it was Ok to diss people if they were cartoon characters in a fantasy video game world on my Playstation 2.'

Yeah. I mean, they seem to be assuming that all of us are going to blur the lines of reality and fantasy, and take things from video games like GTA into real life. I'm also annoyed that they just assume that everybody is going to pick up hookers and kill them. Don't bitch about the game because it gave us the OPTION of doing so. I mean, sure. I've done that in Vice City. I picked up a hooker, fucked her in the back of my car, got my health boost, and then shot her three times in the back of the head with a pistol, and got my money back. Is it the fault of Rockstar Games that I fucked and killed the hooker? Certainly not! I'm a sadistic bastard. It's MY fault. I don't even know if you can do that in San Andreas, I haven't even tried. I was too busy with the story line, wherein I was trying to stop a bunch of people that were dealing drugs to people. Yeah.

Also, according to a poster on Evil Avatar, a group of people went to the Rockstar headquarters to protest the game, and demand that it be taken off the shelves. They brought a bunch of kids with them for effect or something. When asked 'What about the adults that play these games?', they just ignored it and brought it back to the children. Boo-fucking-hoo, people. So you want all of us that are 'old enough' to play the game to just...not? Because you're a bad fucking parent, and you've allowed your child access to a game with swearing, sex, murder, and drugs? You stupid pricks. Turn that goddamn finger around. It's your fucking fault. You're a horrible parent. It's that fucking simple. Quit trying to stop them from selling these VERY GOOD games, just because you can't control your fucking kid.

Yeah...The whole topic just really pisses me off. The parents aren't parenting. If they were, they might notice the M rating. Yeah...It's not mature because it's got a bit of blood in it.

But that's what bad parents seem to be in to, these days...Pointing the finger at video games and such. Yeah, there's small children playing these games. Yeah, they're very influencial when they're young, and these games are influencing them. How 'bout you get your finger out of your ass, and do something productive about it? And no, pointing your ass-finger at the game company isn't productive. Preventing your child from playing the game in the first place, THAT could be something.

The entire topic just pisses me off, so let's move on before I rant about it for another thirty minutes.

Grad sleepover tomorrow night. I'm excited. I think it's gonna be a lot of fun. :D I'm gonna need to get myself nice and wired. I don't intend to sleep much, so yeah. Friday will be a VERY interesting day of classes. Maybe I'll even fall asleep in class! That'd be so cool. I've never done that before. I've seen people do it. I've heard of people doing it. But I never have :(

You know what's damn annoying? When SOMEBODY turns off my internet. I kept trying to sign into Trillian earlier, but nothing would come up. At some point, I remembered that you need to be signed in, so I checked the connection in the back of Felix (my compy) to see if it was in. It was. So I checked the little box dealy, and it was turned off. I pressed a button, and it turned on again. Why the fuck would it turn off? I always always always leave it on. But SOMEBODY turned it off. BASTARDS!

Also, I started using my old Trillian skin again. Good skin. Just thought you all should know.

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You know what?

I'm not particularly fond of Wookies. They just bug me...Goddamn walking carpets. With their stupid life-debts. That's JUST what I need. A walking carpet following me around.

I just figured I'd mention that. :)

So yeah...I actually enjoy Rockwood at night. It's fun to just wander around, in the dark. I got bored of my house and decided to wander around for an hour or so listening (and singing along) to my new CD. It was fun. And it's dark, so nobody can see me and give me weird looks. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

I should buy more cheap candy tomorrow. It's 50% off at Zellers! Leftover Easter candy! I hung out with Kate all fourth period, as we both have a spare, and we decided to go over there. We got a bunch of cheap chocolate. It was awesome. I got a nice chocolate rabbit for like...sixty-four cents? Good stuff.

Oh, I suppose I'll now comment on the new PSP. I really want one. But I'm rather disappointed. Sean Howard had a review of his on squidi, and it doesn't seem all that good...I mean, it's still GOOD, but...It's heavy, has all sorts of pretty much useless features, and only has a battery life of about three hours. How portable is it with a battery life like that? I'm guessing it's built-in chargable batteries. It'd better be, anything else would just be stupid. That was the major feature of the GameBoy Advance SP. The rechargable batteries. But yeah...Three hours? Disappointing. Especially since some of the games apparently have cut-scenes going up to twenty-minutes...Yeah. Kinda bad. But I still really, really, really want one. But I'ma wait a bit, until prices go down...Maybe get a new compy first.

You know what's fun? Threats veiled with smilies. That way, they don't know whether you're being serious or joking. It's fun.

EXAMPLE!

If you eat that fish, I'm going to hurt you. :)

Yeah. It's fun.

Anyways, it's about time for me to head off...I gave you an extra-long post tonight, since there won't be one tomorrow. Well, there probably won't be, anyway. I MIGHT get on. Not that people will miss my daily post or anything...

Until next time,
I want the G.I. Joe, with the kung fu action grip. I want Nintendo with the extra graphics microchip.
~Kataron

So Far, So Bad

I love my new CD...:)

I figured I should probably do at least some sort of comment on this whole...thing. But I don't care enough to think of anything. But I liked what Sean Howard said about it, so I'ma quote it! :D

'I was going to write about the Terri Schiavo case, but I don't particularly care for people turning the poor woman into a martyr, so I won't either. It's none of my business and it's none of your business, so the sooner we pack up our circus and move on, the better. I must say that I'm extremely disappointed with the politics of the situation, and especially in the Bush brothers, who seem to have no respect for the checks and balances that keep assholes like them from gaining too much power. What can I say? I didn't vote for either of them.'

~Sean Howard

Dammit all...I guess I'm kinda obliged to say what I think on my blog, aren't I? Instead of just quoting good old Sean...

Mr. Kaune has been talking to us about what's going on there. Yeah...He seems to enjoy talking more about the news and stuff instead of teaching us and making sure the examples aren't gonna fuck up when we try to use them. Yeah...So I've been hearing about it all since the beginning. It's kind of annoying...You can make a legal thing telling people not to keep you alive for ages and ages if it doesn't look like you're gonna come back, but parents and shit can fight that, making it completely fucking pointless. As far as I know, this woman has nothing like that, but I just thought I should mention it. And now that I check, according to a CNN news site, she didn't leave anything in writing about what she would want if something like this happened. But then, who expects something like that to happen?

It's been what now? Fifteen fucking years? For fuck's sake, there's a very little chance that she's coming back. Just let the woman die. What's the point in forcing her to continue living? All she's doing is eating up money, lying there, being kept alive by machines. It's been fifteen goddamn years since she collapsed. Just let her die. There's no point in her living anymore.

I don't think she should be kept alive anymore. But removing her food thing, I think there are more humane ways to kill her...I mean, just letting her rot away without feeding her? That seems pointlessly cruel. I mean, I know she can't really feel it. But can't you kill her in some other way?

If I went into a coma like that, I wouldn't want to be kept alive for fifteen years...But I don't think I'd want to have my food tube taken out. Fill me fulla drugs and get rid of me quickly, efficiently. That's what I want.

But Sean Howard is right...It's none of my business. It's none of your business.

But that's not gonna stop me from debating with people about it. Just the scenario is interesting. Very interesting...

But let's move on.

I have a few things to talk about! :)

Apparently, my blog's been added to...Something. Some blog directory. I got an email about it. I'll copy it onto here.

'Nate,

I found your blog from my company's blog search feature. I just wanted to let you know that we have your blog indexed and if one of our users searches a term that you have in your blog content, your blog will appear within our results.

I read some of your blog today, keep it up!!'

Yeah...I thought this was kinda weird. But maybe it'll give me a few more readers. *shrug* I'm always up for more strangers reading my blog. :D

ooo! The Grad Sleepover is this Thursday! Fuck yeah! I get to spend the night at the school, hanging out with my friends. That's pretty fucking awesome. There might even be a LAN. That's just cool. Friday will be interesting :p I don't intend to sleep much. So yeah.

Also! I beat Metroid Prime! YEAH! I REALLY should have been studying for a Calculus test tomorrow...But...Metroid Prime...YEAH! I WON! I totally fucked up the boss. I owned his ass. :) GREAT game. I want to get a copy of the sequel now...*drools*

Yeah...So now I'm questioning a few people on my MSN about their opinion on the whole Terri Schiavo thing...It's just an interesting topic.

Who's paying for it all, anyway? Fifteen years of hospitalization and food tubes would be damn expensive. I'd look into it, but that'd be work.

Rats...I need to go to bed and the like. I'll be sure to have another post up tomorrow night, but Thursday will be nothing from me, unless I manage to get on before the thing, or on one of the school computers. Yeah.

Until next time,
You say Tomato, I say Video Games.
~Kataron

You Can't Handle This

'Life is an illusion of mandatory desires in a senseless state of emptiness.'

Thanks, crazy guy!

Fun day today. Got up around...I dunno, 11. Something around then. Played a bit of games and found a bite to eat 'til around...noon. At this point, I went over to Rick's and hung out there for a while. We ripped ten CD's onto Rick's computer. Eight Five Iron Frenzy, and two Relient K. Thanks, Jake's CD collection! Yep. I played some Half-Life 2, then we played Halo 2 on-line for a while. There was a girl playing in the last round :D Had a voice thingy. I usually start out by saying hi to everybody in the match, and she replied. I was amazed that a girl was playing, and said something like that, and she started to say something about how she was gonna hand me my ass or something, then the teams were formed, and we were on the same one. Of course, this was the last round we played, so Eric and Rick were mostly attacking each other at the time. They killed her a few times, and we got booted. Oh well.

After dinner, I finished my English homework. Or at least, the group work. I don't really care 'bout my mark, but group members shouldn't suffer for my incompetence. Yep. After that, I went back over to Rick's and made me a new CD. This was FAR too hard. We copied everything with Windows Media Player, so everything was in a .wma format. This doesn't work for MP3 CD's, so I downloaded something to convert .wma's. I had to convert each song individually, from eight different albums. Geez. But now I have a CD with eight FIF albums. w00t. There was a whole bunch of space left, so I added a 'Hidden Folder'. I called it that, too. But the folders sort automatically and alphabetically, and a hidden folder that's third out of nine isn't that hidden. So I added a Z and left it at that. I put fifty-four video game remixes into that folder. The most mellow ones I can find. You know, a few XenoGears...Some Trigger...A Castlevania song that's all jazzy...Lemmings...ActRaiser....And the entire Secret of Mana list. Yep.

Good times...

Yep.

I also tried out KillZone this morning.

I HATE when you can't jump in games. It just bugs the crap out of me. Especially FPS games. It's just damn annoying. If they want to herd us to places so we don't have a choice in where to go, then add something that doesn't look like it can just be jumped over, and gives us the ability to jump. Metroid Prime is damn good when it comes do that. There's a lot of jumping. Hell, you get the double-jump and everything. God, I love the double-jump. I'd go nuts without it. Yeah.

So yeah. Since Sony got sued, they're now supposed to stop selling PS2's and PS1's that use the Dual Shock controller. Sucks. I hope they can recover from this quickly, and have it not delay the production of the PS3. I can't wait for that...Okay, so the Xbox and GameCube can have a graphical advantage over some of the PS2 stuff, but the PS3 is going to completely level the graphical playing field. Booyah. I loves Sony.

I'm not even sure what to say now...What else is there to rant about tonight, god dammit?! Bah.

Well, there's one thing...I had the STRANGEST dream last night. I don't remember much...Actually, it was like two dreams. But they were very similar...Same sorta layout. I think there might have been a HUD...Yeah. The first one was entirely about zombies. I was in a room somewhere with a bunch of people, and we were being assaulted by zombies. Man...I have the zombie dream at least once a week. But it changes, I guess...Sometimes I'm hunting them...Sometimes they're hunting me...Sometimes it's a defense thing. This one was defense. Yeah...We were on...A mountain? Yeah. There was a mountain. And some snow. And I think some people I know were there. Yeah...Some of them died, of course. That's just how it works.

Unrelated sidenote:

The Legion of Gushers ranked 1695 in Q6! Sounds bad, but it's out of...23,500 or so? Yeah. Something like that. And we were completely unorganized. Next time, we're gonna own. YOU'RE GOING DOWN, OTHER TEAMS!

Right...And the second dream, I remember less. I think a mall was involved. I remember going to different stores. And there was...A...Server...Store. Some store that just rented out server space...It was behind the same counter as a pizza place. Weird stuff. And that's why I shouldn't consume large amounts of caffeine before bed.

So yeah...I decided this morning that I'm no longer Pro-Choice. Now I'm just plain Anti-Life. Abortions shouldn't just be legal, as they are now. They should be MANDATORY! :D

I fucking hate babies. Yeah...Please, before you comment and tell me all this stupid shit, note that I'm not being entirely serious. I'm not entirely joking either, but I don't ACTUALLY think that. Yeah.

Yep. I'm amused that appearance means so much to everybody. Not just like...physical looks. But if you seem like something you're not, then you can totally fool people. It's so much fun to seem like the good guy to impress certain people. I'm usually a very evil and bitter person. But I can seem like the good guy, if I want to. I can also seem even more evil. Hell, I can even go neutral if I try. Just to screw with people, have them think something that's not true.

I've decided that whenever I go to college or university, I'm gonna completely change my appearance. Yeah. Not completely sure what I'm gonna do, but I'm gonna look completely different.

I think I'ma go sleep and such. Maybe I'll dream about zombies again...

Until next time,
The perfect girl can quote Chrono Trigger and owns one of every die.
~Kataron

A Whole New Pie

Sony's been SUED! For 90.7 million dollars! Something about patent infringement about the dual shock controllers. I'd heard the other day that they'd been told to stop selling PS2's in the U.S. because of a lawsuit, but they wouldn't do that, and then court and stuff. Something like that, anyway. But yeah. Did you know that if you take apart a Dual Shock controller, the little rumble dealies aren't even? One is over twice as large. I think it's cause you use that side less. It's the one with the directional pad, but most games use the analog sticks for movement. Most of the button-pressing would hence be done on the other side. Yep.

Uneventful day today. Got up. Found chocolate. My brother and his friend woke me up at like...9:30 to try to make me look for chocolate with them, because my parents wouldn't let them start without me. I yelled at them and they kept trying to wake me up every ten minutes or so until I finally crawled out of bed around 10:30. We found all the chocolate, then they declared that they didn't really like chocolate, and gave it all to me. I played San Andreas for most of the afternoon, with some Metroid Prime in there, too. Fought a tough boss in Metroid. A big-ass thing called an Omega Pirate. Damn Space Pirates. I got him on my fourth try. The first two tries were just to try to get tactics set up. Find it's weakness, find how to MAKE it weak, etc. Yeah. I've pretty much beaten San Andreas...Just the last mission that I need to do now, and it's annoying. DAMN YOU, TENPENNY! Yeah.

Also, Rick got a PS2. So I lent him a bunch of RPG's for it. Good old PS2. I lent him...FFX...Kingdom Hearts...DotHack....La Pucelle Tactics...Growlanser...uhh....oh, Ratchet and Clank: Up Your Arsenal. Umm... And possibly another one. Yep. Good times. I love playstation. I love Sony.

I want an entire outfit made of velvet. Wouldn't that be awesome?! I love velvet. I love it so very much.

Anyways...Yeah...My brother and his friend are sleeping downstairs tonight, so my plans for late night tv and computerizing are pretty much ruined. I've gotta go to bed soon, as they're already in bed. Crazy-talk. It's only quarter past twelve. Oh well. My head hurts a bit, maybe I'll wake up refreshed tomorrow. Then I'll do all of the homework that's overdue for English.

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YEAH RIGHT! Almost had you fooled, didn't I? Heh.

Oh, and as a final note, if anybody out there is interested in peering into the mind of a video game producer, check out this interview. Hilarity.

Until next time,
Man...I remember Full Throttle. Way back in the day...That was the shit.
~Kataron

Reminiscence

Dr. Wily is my bitch.

Yep. Woke up around...11 or so today, and started out playing MegaMan. I just CAN'T beat Dr. Wily in MegaMan 7. He's one tough bastard. Yeah.

But I DID manage to unlock the two hidden games. As it turns out, they're fighting games. They're actually pretty cool. Not like...Street Fighter or Tekken fighting, but...Yeah. It's really cool. I beat them both as all the different characters, just 'cause I'm that pathetic. Also started on MegaMan 8, though it's rather hard.

But most of my evening was dedicated to FarScape: The PeaceKeeper Wars. It was damn cool. I've always liked that show. Yeah.

Also, I got my mom pulled over today because I forgot to put on my seatbelt. We were on our way back home from Guelph, and a cop saw me. Pulled us over, and we got two tickets. One for me not wearing my seatbelt, and one for her not having updated some sort of sticker thing on her car for over two years. Yeah. They were gonna make me pay them back for the seatbelt ticket, but I later realized that they owe ME money. So instead of paying me back the $185 they owed me, they now owe me $75. Not that it makes much of a difference, getting the money was a rather far shot anyway. We're fairly broke, so they didn't have anything to pay me back with. Yeah.

Bah. My brother has his friend over. They keep taking over my room, and now they're down here, trying to watch a movie. His friend wants to watch it all, until 1:45. But I want the tv before then, so I'm kicking him off. Because I can. Because I'm bigger than he is.

I've also joined that Q6 thing for MSN. I'm a member of the Legion of Gushers. Myself, Ben, Jared, and a couple other people. The first question was pretty easy. We were all kinda late in answering the questions, so we lost some points. But yeah. It should be a fun game.

And...Talking to a friend is just making me want to rant about something new.

I'd like to talk to you now about 'Love at first sight'. Yeah...You always hear people talking about it. It's complete and utter bullshit. You CANNOT fall in love with somebody at first sight. It's impossible. You cannot have the necessary feelings for somebody to call 'love' without at least knowing their personality. Of course, there are certain things that people do that makes it possible to catch a glimpse at what might be their personality. Like...If you see somebody...I dunno, volunteering at something, you might assume that they're generous and such. Yeah. But that still does not give you enough insight into one's personality to fall in love with them. If you've never spoken to some person, and you have a huge crush on them for whatever reason, you cannot say that you are in love with them. If you do, you are very, very stupid. That's not love. That's you being pathetic. Yeah. Love at first sight just doesn't happen. Only in a fairy-tale world. But hell, I think pretty much all forms of love are only in fairy tale worlds.

Man...I really hate the French. The people, the language. I hates them all. Oh, and just so I don't get any smart-asses, any comments that have ANY French words WILL be deleted, regardless of other content. Because I am a bitter and angry person. Yeah. That's this paragraph.

What else is there to say?

Oh...

I tried to jog tonight. Not one of my better ideas. I jogged over to the school, and tried to go into the Conservation Area from there. I forgot about the ice. The horrible, HORRIBLE ice at the school. Every year, there's ice that smells like shit. It really does. It reeks. I think it's stuff from sewers or something, 'cause some of the ice gets to be funky colours. Yeah. It turns out, trying to jog at night in the snow is a bad idea. There's patches of ice, and it's all so white. So very white. That, combined with the darkness, fucks up depth perception, and it's hard to tell just how much snow is right in front of you. Level ground is good for jogging, or at least the ability to predict what's coming. I ended up giving up and walking around for over half an hour, just talking to myself and listening to music. Yep.

Anyways, I'm distracted, so I'ma go watch tv. I've finally gotten rid of the kids that were down here bugging me. w00t.

Until next time,
Be not what you are. Be what I tell you to be.
~Kataron

Compression Of Time

Yeah...

I'm too tired to write up an actual post, and discuss things that may be of relevance to my readers. So I'll just briefly outline my day.

Woke up.

San Andreas. Game froze when I went into a Strip Club on my way to the save point. *shakes fist*

Rented MegaMan. Fuck yeah.

Then I headed over to Rick's, for video games and movie. We watched the Incredibles. Hot damn, that's a GREAT movie! Craziness.

Then youth group. Had an interesting talk with Emily, Tendai(sp?) and Andrew (though he didn't know anything about the topic) about programming. Apparently, Tendai has taken courses on it. Which is cool. She's one of the new volunteers at the youth group. Nice lady.

Then generic things ensued, games, cards, pizza. Some of the kids saw somebody go into the church, so Andrew went to check it out. When he got back, he said that he didn't find anybody, but the stair lights were on. That's creepy, so I said that we should go and check it out again. So he, Rick, and myself went up there and searched the whole church. I carried a sharp pen with me, just in case. As well as a lighter and can of Axe. Yeah. We didn't find anybody. But the church has been broken into before, so I figured it should at least be searched thoroughly. There was only one room that we didn't check, 'cause it was creepy. If there was a thief in there, then Kudos. You're a better man than I.

Then came home, played more of MegaMan 7, and came on-line.

That was pretty much my day. Doesn't promise to get much more interesting the next few days, either. No plans, only video games that need beating. MegaMan. San Andreas. Metroid Prime. And if I get bored of any of those, I might rent the Incredibles for GameCube. We'll see.

Anyways, yeah. I'll TRY to write a real post tomorrow. But no promises. I hate promises.

Until next time,
phj33r my Zero Point Energy Manipulator!
~Kataron

Someday The Dream Will End

People always use that phrase 'What would Jesus do?'. I, personally, am more interested in what Thor would do. Or Zeus. Or Hades. Some cool old-school God that nobody gives a damn about anymore. I'm sure if people asked themselves what THEY would do, there'd be a lot more smiting in the world today!

Today was a pretty good day for me. Wandered around before first, and Jared was even there a bit early. That's always cool. Then in first, the teacher hid chocolate eggs throughout the classroom, three different types. Once we'd found all three, we sat at our desks and got a big-ass chocolate rabbit. Each. Pretty sweet. I also brought in a large amount of change, and we ended up with enough money to adopt two wolves. I got to name one. Good old Treble.

Second was...Second. I basically talked with Midgie all class. About the project, then about other generic school stuff. You know, film festival, blah blah, etc. Then we got called down to the music room, and the entire class got to listen to Mr. Cherry(sp?) play a couple songs on the piano. Songs that we have to sing on Thursday, whether or not we have any musical talent. Groan.

Third was kinda fun. The usual talking, Mr. Kaune questioned us as to where we were yesterday. I told him that Ben had been converted into Binary, and that we'd gone into the internet and saved him. Yeah. Actually got some work done, too, finished a boring bunch of questions about UML.

Lunch was...Bleh. I spent the entire 'period' walking around, looking for Bobbie Tubbs, who I was supposed to direct towards where Jared was writing a quiz. He was supposed to be coming for the Film Festival, but I never found him.

The Film Festival was...Okay, I guess. There were some really shitty videos. And there were some good videos. Like High School Politics. That was AWESOME. But they didn't put in like...a whole hour of videos. Jared's included. A trailer that he had done entirely FOR the Film Festival. That he'd spent hours working on, to edit and finish so it would be done FOR the Film Festival, and they didn't put it in. But they DID put in some shitty music videos and a horribly done video where people went off of a snowboard jump over and over again. 'cause that was FAR more entertaining than Jared's. Needless to say, it pissed him off greatly. And rightly so. It was a damn good trailer. And he was so excited about it being in there...Needless to say, I'm going to help him find the people that decided what went in and what didn't, and kill them. Apparently it was a bunch of students. Oh, that's a great idea. What, are you fucking stupid? You get a bunch of dumbass students who don't know the first thing about film-making...I mean, ERIC was on the council or something. I heard something like that. And he's in the first comm. tech course. If they're letting people like THAT judge what films get in, then they shouldn't even bother holding a Film Festival, because all of the good films will be replaced by horribly shitty ones, as demonstrated today. No offense, of course, Eric. But yeah, I'm not sure who else was on there or whatever, but I'm sure I'll find out.

Yeah...

In other news, my little talk on abortions last night wasn't taken well by some people. But then again, everything I say isn't taken well by some people. Vero decided to take things to where she felt safe, and post my little rant, as well as her comment on her livejournal. Of course, she has people like her that read that, so she got at least SOME support.

'Aaaaaaaaaand there goes any trace of credibility. It's not worth arguing with that ilk---pearls before swine, and all that.' was said about something I said, so yeah. I don't really care, but it just annoys me slightly.

I was amused by how she ended the post, though. Rather hypocritical.

'But that's Kataron for you... Not exactly Vulcan in his logic'

Yeah. Amused me. I'm not Vulcan in my logic? I'm not, and she was using deaths caused by illegal abortions as an argument? She was using THAT, in an argument about all those countless children dying? Honestly, the number of deaths caused by illegal abortions would be miniscule compared to the number of children dying from abortions. That is just a stupid fucking argument. It's that simple.

I skimmed through the comment she left on here. Only skimmed. It was seven in the morning, I'd just crawled out of bed, I didn't care to read anything else. I still haven't read it, but I've skimmed a little further and read her comment about the "fuck-up gene". Were I not trying to stir up contraversy and arguments with that post, I would have deleted the comment. Insult me on your LiveJournal all you want, but this is MY blog. You don't go up to a king in his own court and tell him that he's ugly. You get your head chopped off. Now, I know I'm FAR from being a king, but this is still my court. The only stupidity and insulting remarks tolerated will be MINE. Read the disclaimer at the top. This is my blog, everything said here is my opinion. If you don't like it, then just fuck off. Don't read it. Seriously, if you're just going to be stupid and insult me, then do so on your OWN blog. Yeah. I am tempted to try to find out how to block her from commenting, but I don't care enough. But if she doesn't OBEY POLICY then her comments will just be deleted.

I love having the power to delete comments. On her post, she said:

'I imagine I will be blocked for that... or at least have that comment deleted since he doesn't want anyone seeing that somebody may have *gasp* insulted him. Just because you hide it, doesn't mean it's not there anymore!'

Then went on about her stupid non-deleting policy. Yeah, that's fine. I'm amused because it makes me look like the bad guy, and makes her look like the not-bad guy. I delete comments that I dislike, and she doesn't. Wow.

Heh. Greg posted on her LiveJournal, after her show of stupidy on the Daily Disciple. As to her Vulcan remark, he had THIS to say:

'So, in my estimation, cold Vulcan logic still sides with Nate's opinion, even if it was...more Klingon in its presentation.'

I'm SLIGHTLY offended by being compared to Klingons, but he still disagreed with her, so I'm cool with it. And I do so adore my cold Vulcan logic. Which yes, I do possess. I just get all cluttered up by feelings and usually can't use it right. But sometimes I can, because I'm an evil heartless bastard. I don't really care that much about the babies getting killed by abortions. I care even less for the women that would die from illegal abortions. You would clearly know the risks well before you agree to such an operation, and if you still want to risk your life by doing so, instead of having the baby and putting it up for adoption, then fine. Go ahead with that. If nothing else, it will amuse me.

Hrm...Is there anything else important that needs discussion? Don't think so...Is there any other way I can offend my readers tonight? Hrm...

She came up in a recent talk that Jared and I were having. Actually, it was yesterday. In the car with Ben. Jared commented on how she hadn't been on-line in a very, very long time. I have her blocked and deleted, as well as a very large percentage of what used to be my list. Then he made a comment about how maybe she killed herself. All I could say was 'Good'. It makes me wonder what exactly became of her. Only wonder, and only slightly. I'd be quite content to live out the rest of my life with never having to speak to her again. Maybe if she was dead, there would be a sense of closure. Maybe. I doubt it would make the pain go away, but to know that she suffered to that extent, it would at least be satisfying. She still haunts my dreams, my thoughts, my memories. I would be infinitely happier if I could just forget about her altogether. But memory just doesn't work like that. And now it will take me an incredibly long time before I can ever trust anybody I'm in a relationship with again. Then again, I highly doubt I'm going to be in another relationship for quite some time, so yeah. Whatever happens to her, I hope the bitch suffered, or suffers. I've been imagining recently...Visiting Texas years in the future, and just...ruining her life. Doing whatever I can to do so...

Oh, and I haven't forgotten about you, Bob. If I came down there to ruin her life, you'd better be sure I'd get you, too. I wonder how he would feel to come home and find out that both of his parents had been murdered...Horribly murdered...And there'd have to be something very unpleasant done to their corpses...Beheaded or something...Maybe cut out their eyes and tongues...Leave their heads so that they'd be found later...In his bed. With the rest of their corpses in there, so he lifts the sheets and finds their bodies, and then their heads fall off...Oh, yes...I like that. Of course, they'd suffer in dying. Very much. I'd come for him afterwards. I'd also make sure to get Eva's friends.

Wow. That actually relaxed me. I think I'm done for tonight.

Until next time,
A death is wasted unless they suffered greatly in dying.
~Kataron

LetUsDanceInThePhantomPhorest

Right, kiddies, we'll be going into a rather touchy subject a bit later on tonight. After I've gone over my day. So stay tuned and keep reading if you want to find out what the mystery subject is! Wow. That sounded so lame.

Anyays, yeah. The day started out normally. Quiz in Calculus. And it was brought to my attention at the end of the class that I don't really have acne. I have a pimple or two, but not the acne that I clearly should have, with the insane levels of sugar that I consume on a daily basis. A very short discussion followed, and it was decided that though I consume a large amount of sugar, I also have an insanely stress-free life. People in grade 12 probably should NOT be leading such a stress-free life, but meh. I don't worry about work, homework, projects. If I do them, they'll get done, if I don't, it's not the end of the world. Yep. Stress free. Hadn't really thought much about it before. Well, I had, but not any time recently. Yeah.
Second period was...Interesting. There was a stupid short story writing thing. It bored me. That class bores me a lot. Boring old English.

Third...Now THAT'S when the party started! We decided yesterday that we'd skip, and go to Tri-Star Trading. We also decided to meet outside the class that we were skipping, to tempt fate, so to speak. This was a fairly bad idea, and after I'd waited for a minute or two, Ben showed up and suggested that we wait closer to the stairs. I agreed, and we did. Matt showed up, and decided that he didn't want to go. Bastard. Then Beth showed up, then Jared. Matt couldn't be convinced to rejoin us. Beth had replaced Mitch, who was absent with a Dentist appointment. We were just about to head off when Mr. Kaune left the safety of the class. Ben said something loudly about him, warning us, and we all bolted. We ran down the stairs, and down the hall below, then through the next hall. We were safe at this point, so after a short bathroom break, we all piled into Ben's car, and left. We found the story fairly easily. Dear Lord. Mitch was right. It's amazing! The savings! I bought a couple ties for 80 cents a piece, I think. Might have been 90. But I think it was 80. Yeah. We got some candy and stuff, but I was going to save most of my money for Bulk Barn, which we decided to hit after this place. Ben decided that he'd buy a very large pack of lighters. Fifty of them, to be exact. For fifteen bucks or so. It was pretty cool. I got a red one. :D After that, we went to Harvey's, and got a bit of lunch. They were very helpful, lol. I had never been to a Harvey's before, or at least can't remember going to one, so it was a new experience for me. The thing they have there with the whole...putting the stuff on the burgers in front of you was interesting. Less interesting for me, though, since I have mine plain. Oh well. We didn't go to Bulk Barn in the end, and we dropped Beth off at....Well, I forget. Yeah. We still had a bunch of time before class started, so we decided to drive around for a while. Ben is a CRAZY driver. Crazy. At one point, he almost hit his brother (I think it was his brother...) with the car. He pulled into where he and some other kids were skateboarding, and drove towards him at a fairly high speed. At the last second, he jumped one way, and Ben pulled the other way. Then he pulled out of the parking lot as if nothing had ever happened. It was hilarious. Also, we drove around somewhat randomly for a bit, just...Driving and talking. Quite fun. Yeah. Then we got back, and Ben and Jared had to go to class. I went to Food Basics with James and Kate, and then proceeded to hide under the stairs from Mr. Kaune. I heard his voice a couples times, too. Kinda creepy, but I was hidden away. Yep. Then the day ended. The school day, that is.

Right...Let's move on to the touchy subject, shall we? If you read the Daily Disciple (although I suppose it can hardly be called 'daily'...), then you might guess what it is. Abortion.

Yep. Abortion. Now, Eric's entry started off saying something about terrorists killing such-and-such amounts of people each day, and blah-blah, the terrorists are the abortion doctors. This seemed to be going a little far...But meh, those Christians can think whatever the fuck they want. Yeah. I'll just give you my view right now. I'm Pro-Choice. The names have always interested me...Whichever one you are, you sound bad. You're either Pro-Choice, and therefore Anti-Life...Or you're Pro-Life, and Anti-Choice. That's always just bugged me. But yeah. Pro-Choice. But I don't think that abortions are something that should just be completely overused. I don't think that women should have abortions without a damn good reason. If they CAN support the child, they should. I actually have a friend who's pregnant, no names, and she's going through with it, to have the baby. She doesn't want to destroy the life inside her before it has a chance to live. I can really respect that, but wouldn't have any less respect for her if she decided to get an abortion. I'm not really sure how to put up an argument about this. I don't believe that women should be FORCED to have children if they don't really want to. But it IS their fault, so there should be some consequences. I mean, like...If you get an abortion, you should NOT have to get another one at some point. You should have learned your lesson by then. But I mean, there's always those cases where you can't force them to have the kid. I mean, what if some woman gets raped, and gets pregnant by it? Are you going to force HER to have a baby that she doesn't want, a baby that has been made by no fault of her? No. That'd be just wrong. But if it's just a slut who sleeps with scores of men and doesn't use condoms, simply because it enhances the feeling or what-have-you, then tough. You need to be taught a lesson. Unfortunately, if it were such a person, if a baby were to be concieved, it would have to be put up for adoption, or left in the shoddy home of a slutty mother. But yeah, if you can't care for the baby, you could always just put it up for adoption. Yeah...

Now, I don't normally read the Daily Disciple. I'm not overly religious, but if there's something interesting, I might glance at it. In this case, Greg told me about it. Well, told me about certain comments. Vero posted something about...blah blah...Illegal abortions killing 'contributing members of society'. That's just dumb. You can't say that, and not think about the incredible number of potentially productive members of society that ARE killed by abortions. If you get killed by an illegal abortion done by a shitty doctor, then good job. You're a fuckup. It's probably good that you and your child are dead, because there's a good chance they would have inherited the fuckup gene as well. But honestly, how can you say that? That's so very stupid. Single worst argument I've ever heard. You can't use people getting abortions dying as an argument. Because they're killing their unborn children. The numbers of women dying from illegal abortions would be barely anything compared to the number of potentially 'contributing members of society' that are killed BECAUSE of abortions. Seriously, just shut up.

I'd like to take this moment to remind me readers of the anti-insulting-me policy I have in place. I will delete any comments that I find insulting, and anybody that writes these comments can go fuck themselves. :)

I'd ALSO like to take this moment to remind my readers about ANOTHER policy of mine. Either leave your name with your comment, or don't comment at all. Somebody commented on my last post, and no name. This is the single LAST time I will let it slide. Any more anonymous comments that don't bother with a goddamn name will be deleted. If I have to delete too many of these, I will just turn OFF anonymous comments. I'd rather not do this, as I know some people that occasionally use it because they don't have a blogger account, but I will if I have to. So please. Either leave a name or fuck off.

Yep. I love being in charge here. I'm the freakin' king.

Yep. So that was the touchy subject.

Less touchy subject, Film Festival tomorrow! Yay! I'm raher excited. Although it was mentioned to me today that I should have submitted my Locker Troll movie. I hadn't realized that anybody thought it was any good :p Hell, I haven't even seen the finished copy. I had Jared edit most of it for Devon and I. That was last semester. I think it's gone now, unless Devon has a copy of it. Yeah.

Dammit all. There were other things that I wanted to comment about, but I can't remember them for the life of me.

Blast!

Hrm...Ah, yes. That's what I was going to talk about next. Apparently Easter is coming up, hence the long weekend dealy. My first period teacher has decided to hide chocolate eggs in the classroom. That's so awesome! Ms. Tremblay is a great teacher. Also, since Save the Future is for adopting wolves or something this week, I asked her if I could name the wolf, if I brought in the most money. She said I could, so I'm bringing a whole crap-load of dimes again. I wanna name it Treble! If you get the reference, good. If not, then smack yourself in the face with a fish.

What am I gonna do over this long weekend? Well, I think Kate wants to do something involving cake on Monday. Other than that, I think I'm pretty much free. Probably gonna rent some video games, beat Metroid Prime, and hopefully San Andreas.

Dammit, now I'm getting into the abortion argument with friends. Christian friends. Blah. Brings me back to my days or arguing with Dave Magnus about homosexuality...He's GOOD at debating. We went on for like...an hour, an hour and a half, until I finally got tired of it.

Yeah...Getting into the whole debate about the raped girl...Twice now I've gotten into it. I blocked one person, and the other person stopped the debate because they didn't want to piss me off and be blocked themselves.

I can understand in most cases how people could be against abortion. Yeah, but if a woman gets raped, and pregant, and people think that she should have the child? That's just sick. I can understand in other cases, because in other cases, it's their fault. If they're going to have sex, then they should be aware of the consequences. But it's not the woman's fault that she was raped, she's done nothing to deserve having such a burden put on her shoulders. Whenever I say that in the argument, people say that it's not the baby's fault that it was concieved that way. How would the child even feel growing up, if no abortion was had? How would I feel to know that my father was some criminal who raped my mother? I don't even know.

I'd continue to write things about this, but I'm pretty tired. I'm just going to go to bed. Comment if you like, but I'm deleting any comments left without a name, and any comments that insult me. Because I'm the fuckin' king.

Until next time,
I'm Pro-Choice. That makes me Anti-Life. So you'd better not fuck with me :D (no pun intended)
~Kataron

La Saia's Resting Place

Hey all.

Yeah...Not really sure what to rant about tonight. I had a few topics, but right now, I just can't seem to bring myself to care. But I suppose I'll mention them anyways...

First off, the Shell Station in Rockwood is out of gas. How fucked up is THAT? The guy that just bought it didn't pay the bill or something, and now they don't have gas. I just find it entirely amusing, especially since I was told that this guy's a millionaire or something. He clearly has no idea what the fuck he's doing.

Next...More Half-Life 2 and Metroid Prime tonight. Got the gravity gun in HL2, and the gravity armour in MP. Completely different things of course, but yeah. Unfortunately, Metroid Prime, like all other games I play too long, becomes instinct. I don't really have to think about what I'm doing, I just sort of watch it happen. This frees up my mind to think about a wide variety of depressing, depressing things. But all of these depressing things have been gone over before. It's her again. Yep. Still think about her. Still hurting. But I've talked about this so many times on here, and I doubt that anybody reading this wants to hear me bitching about her any more.

Although, it is a fitting introduction into our next topic tonight...I'm gonna talk about love again. I've probably said all this same shit before, but I was watching a movie the other day, and they were all 'Oh, I'll love you forever, etc'. Which, of course, is stupidity. Only in movies and fairy tales can love 'last forever'. Love dies. It's what it does. The next time you're with somebody that you care about, your significant other or whatever, wait until they say something like that, how they'll love you forever. How you're so very special. How they'll never hurt you. Make a mental note when it happens, and remember it when you've broken up, after the love has died. Love does NOT last forever. It just doesn't. You think you have something special? Ha. Just wait and see.

Then again, I could be wrong. Hell, I'm wrong a lot. Maybe you'll find the right person, and live happily ever after. Or maybe they'll cheat on you. Just...Don't think that it can't happen to you. It can.

You know what else pisses me off? And I KNOW I've mentioned this before. Fucking drama queens. I admit, I can be somewhat of a drama queen at times. But I would never call myself that, after some of the stupid stuff I've seen. I mentioned a girl a while back who was talking on the bus about how she was fed up with stuff, blah blah blah, moving in with her grandparents or something. Guess what? She's still here. Yeah. Just got suspended for the next two days. I love her stories to the bus driver. She always makes it sound like she's the heroine, and everything is tragically aligned against her. It's quite funny. She was suspsended because she asked her teacher what the point was in a four day week (this is the START of the story, not why she was suspended. Although it's a stupid fucking question. Missing one day...It's ALMOST a normal week.) and some other guy in her class called her an idiot. She 'politely informed him that he made a rude remark and should learn some manners' or something, and the teacher got mad at her. She complained that he had called her an idiot, and the teacher told him to stop. And by the Gods, that just wasn't enough for her! Since she was given a talking to, and all he got was an order to stop, she decided to storm out of the classroom, and earned herself a two-day suspension. Oh, boo-fucking-hoo. I liked how she put it, though. She's a rude, loud, annoying little bitch. I HIGHLY doubt that she put it like that to the kid. Probably told him to shut up and insulted him. Just my guess. But yeah. Storming out of class because the kid didn't get punished for calling you an idiot? You fucking moron. Now, if he had called you a fucking moron for instance, or a stupid bitch, then maybe you would have a right to complain. Those are actually offensive. The way I see it, the person was just making an observation. You are an idiot. Shut the fuck up, nobody cares. You really should hear her talking...All she ever does is complain about things. Oh, such-and-such is so unfair! All my teachers hate me! I get picked on and singled out in class, and I'm the only one in the entire class that's picked on! It's all bullshit, really. But yeah. Drama Queens just piss me right off. Then you've got the kind that'll cry over tests and totally flip out because they didn't get a 90 on their project or something.

I'm also extremely pissed off by people that say that they failed a test because they didn't get a 70 or an 80 or whatever. Oh, shut the fuck up. That's just fucking stupid. There are probably people in the class that ACTUALLY failed. Sub-fifty marks. And you think you failed because you didn't get an overly high mark? God, I would LOVE to see you actually bomb a test. You'd probably be the type to just completely flip out over it. And I'd find it funny as hell. Because you're dumb.

While we're on the subject of people pissing me off...You know what ELSE pisses me off? When people don't answer your questions. Or they answer them stupidly, and you don't get the information you asked for. Specifically asked for. I asked Mr. Kaune today whether we were supposed to answer a question, and then the sub-questions that followed, or just the sub-questions, and he said something about how all of the answers were on the website. I don't even know if he actually heard my question. Or if he just assumed that I was asking about one of the questions in particular. That's probably when it pisses me off the most, when teachers won't answer your questions. Or imply that you should know it. That's something that really irritates me. OBVIOUSLY we don't know it if we're ASKING you. It's your fucking job to answer questions like these, to TEACH us. So get off your ass and do it. If we're asking you, then we've taken that step, and gone to you for help. It's your job to do it. You're PAID to do it. If you're not going to, then what's the fucking point of you having that job? You shouldn't even get paid. Bastards.

Yeah...I should have gone to bed ten minutes ago.

Until next time,
Don't fear the reaper. Fear me.
~Kataron

Sigmatism

Heheheh...Oh, Sigma. What are you gonna do next? Have Zero killed? You already did, you bastard! I'ma revengify him good!

Yeah. Back to school today, I was...Couldn't really think much. I don't like thinking. But today was even worse than usual. But that's to be expected on a day like today. Yeah.

But when I got home...And by that, I mean to Rick's house! Man...Half-Life 2 is FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC. *drools*

There'll be more about that in a day or two, once I've played a bit more. :)

Also, I was playing Metroid Prime again tonight. Such a fun game. I fought the generic boss made up of a bunch of rocks today. Yeah. Blasted that fucker good.

Sorry, but this is a shortened post tonight...I is tired, and I found an amusing quiz site. Yeah.

So...

Until next time,
Via. Via what? I don't know. Just fucking via.
~Kataron

Dove Lamore

Look at me! Not missing tonight's update! FUCK YEAH!

Yeah...Today was delightfully uneventful. Perfect for the last day of March Break. Does this count as the last day, or was Friday technically the last day? I mean, it WAS technically the last day we got off. We wouldn't have gone to school Saturday or Sunday anyway. This has always troubled me. Yeah.

Anyways...

Got up at noon. I LOVE doing that. Getting up at noon. Any time before 10am is an UnGodly hour. UNGODLY! After I got up, I...What did I do? I think I played San Andreas for a couple hours, then came on-line for a bit. I was GOING to bless Rick with my presence, but he was in Guelph doing something. So instead of coming back on-line and having to explain to the three or so people that I was talking to that he wasn't home, I wandered around my house and then proceeded to play Metroid Prime for a while. Fun fun fun. I beat a big-ass boss. It was the giant plant boss. Most games have at least one. You know, the guy in the big flower thing that opens, and there he is? Yeah. That one. How many times have I fought you, oh plant boss? Dozens, at the very least. Probably more often.

You know what pisses me off? When people say thins like...'Can you do me a favour?' and expect you to give a yes or no answer with no facts about the aforementioned favour. And then if you say yes beforehand, they try to say that you already agreed to it. Really fucking annoying. I admit, it's a good way to kind of break the ice if it's sort of awkward to ask them for it, but holding somebody to a favour before they know what it is? That's just fucking annoying.


I just had an entire argument with Jared over a single space. A good friend of mine, Seth, is trying to come up with a new name for his band. Tears to Hideaway was one of the choices on the list of possibilities, and I commented on how I think it would look cooler as two words. And there, it has a meaning that makes sense. Jared proceeded to tell me that by adding a space, I was completely changing the meaning of the name. I admit, hideaway and Hide Away don't mean the exact same thing.

hide·a·way ( P ) Pronunciation Key (hd-w)n.

1. A place of concealment; a hideout.

2. A secluded or isolated place.

Hide Away

To hide something. Away.

Yeah. Hideaway is a noun. Hide Away is a verb. But 'Tears to Hideaway' basically means Tears to someplace hidden. Tears to Hide Away means that there ARE tears that need to be hidden. The meanings are very similar, it's just that one of them is the statement that such tears exist, and one is...where they need to go?

We had quite the argument over how, by adding a space, I made so very different, and that it...I dunno, didn't fit their band or something anymore. Whereas the one that didn't make sense did. Also in the selection were 'Romance the River' and 'Columbus'. If somebody could tell me how these fit a band, please do. Just doesn't make any sense to me. Anyways, Seth asked for my opinion. My opinion in specific, as well as the opinion of somebody named Sam. It was stated right in the post. So I gave my opinion, and in my 'oh-so-humble' opinion, it both looks and sounds better with a space. Sure, it changes the meaning slightly, but not by much. I don't see why it would matter if a meaning was changed by so little. A noun and a verb. Big fucking deal. But if any of you know Jared, you'll know that arguing with him is completely fucking pointless. He'll never concede defeat. He'll just logically take apart your points, shoot down your rebuttals, and make you feel like a complete fucking moron. He's so incredibly stubborn. I'm wrong a lot. I've learned to concede things when I've been proven wrong. But I don't like being accused of making assumptions and reading too much into what somebody is saying, when the other person is guilty of the same. He read far too much into adding a simple space, and changing the meaning SLIGHTLY. And he was assuming that they tailored each of these names to suit their band perfectly, because only bad bands don't make names that describe the band, or something. Neither of us has ever HEARD the band, he was simply going on the fact that he knows Seth, which I do as well, and that 'Seth wouldn't be in a bad band'. But he could not explain to me why Romance the River or Columbus fit their band.

It was a completely pointless and irritating argument, as neither of us has heard the band, nor could say exactly WHY they chose those names. Of course, he takes it that he won the argument, because they mean different things, and that the band picked something based on them. I refuse to admit defeat until the person that posted these names, Seth, tells me that my meaning is wrong. If he does that, sure, I'll admit that I was wrong. But otherwise, I won't. In the end, I just got pissed off at Jared and blocked him.

This happens when you've been best friends for as long as we have. We just HAVE to hate each other sometimes. I'm just annoyed by how stubborn he is in arguments. Whenever we have an argument, I'm ALWAYS WRONG, and feel like a complete fucking moron by the end.

Heh...This'll piss off Jared, but he reminds me of his father sometimes. I've heard tales of their arguments, and how stubborn his father is. He can be just as stubborn at times, from the things I've heard. It can get pretty irritating at times. Though, it is great when you're on HIS side for the argument. I remember the debates we had in 'ologies last year...We were on the same side for pretty much all of the debates, except for the first one. We linked every topic to Lord of the Rings. And I'd just like to add that the team I was on won every debate. So we won every debate except one. See, that's when we're working together.

I'll probably argue with him about it tomorrow. Good. I'm too fucking tired to think straight now, I've been sleeping so crappily the last few nights. Hopefully I'll be able to at least bring him down to the level where we go to Seth for a deliberation. Otherwise, suicide always remains an option :D

Anyways, it's about time for me to head off to bed. I think I'll unblock Jared just before I sign off. Yep.

Until next time,
Oh, I have PLENTY of tears to hide away.
~Kataron

The Samus Strut

Hiya.

Yeah, yeah...I've missed two updates. I have no excuse for missing the first one. I was playing Mordor, and it slipped my mind. I remembered at about three in the morning as I was lying in bed, having gotten there about...half an hour prior. But I was far too tired to come back down and write a post. Last night, though, I was over at Rick's. We were talking at the youth group, and Dave started talking about this movie, and then we decided to rent that movie. Once we got to the video store we found it, and then found two more.

In the end, we had rented Walking Tall, Anchorman, and Troy. All great movies. There were some amusing fight scenes in Walking Tall. You know, the Rock and all. Anchorman was hilarious.

LOUD NOISES!

And Troy was fucking awesome. Despite the blatant fuck-ups by the writers. Achilles did NOT get shot with an arrow in the heel. That's lame. But I still enjoyed the movie. How could I not, with Brad Pitt and Orlando Bloom? NOT GAY. I'm so not gay that we wrote a song about how not gay I am at the youth group. Later, we played Twister.

Man...Tonight's the last night of the March Break that I can stay up late. *sniff*

And I'm already tired, as I stayed up until about six watching those movies, then watching Rick and Dave play Halo Trial with the Rocket Mod. Yeah...It took me a while to get to sleep, and then I woke up a couple times.

It was much fun.

Today was....For lack of a better word, tired. Yeah. That's all I have to say about that.

It's saddening to think that March Break is almost over....I'm gonna miss being on Mordor more often and talking to the cool people on there. Well, not usually talking...But some that I know...Yeah.

Mordor is so much fun...But I'm trying not to get hopelessly addicted again.

I'd just like to take this moment to break in and say that the Nintendo DS system sucks something fierce. Who the fuck wants a touch-screen system? Honestly, that's just lame. The Playstaion PSP, now THAT is cool. But the DS? Completely fucking lame.

Whoa...I got distracted by an interesting conversation on Mordor, completely forgot I was writing a blog post.

I'm too tired for this...I'm just gonna...I dunno, sleep or something. Maybe drink some coke. Yeah.

Until next time,
You stabbed me with a potato peeler!
~Kataron/Nereus/Tarnum

Fear and Suffering

What does Mordor know you as?
Kataron
Password?
*******

Hiya kiddies. Well, uneventful day. Delightfully uneventful :) I was gonna get together with Dave, but that's been pushed to Friday. I was invited over to Rick's, but I just wanted to hang out all day, and do nothing. I've been disgustingly busy since March Break started. It seemed cool at the start, but it's very tiring. So today was a good day.

And as you can probably tell by the beginning of the post, I'm back into Mordor again.

What?! You don't know Mordor! Well, let me tell you a thing or two about a thing or two!

Mordor is an on-line text-based game. Which means that it's all text. No graphics. Yeah, sounds kinda stupid, but it's really fun. I thought it was the dumbest thing ever before Jared forced me to try it, but then I got hooked. I saw him yesterday playing it again, helping his step-brother with something, and I just got the itch.

I logged on at about 2am...this morning, I guess, and found out that I have a level forty mage on here. Now level forty-five. Yep. Jared's got a level thirty-four ranger, so we can group and stuff.

But...

I just found out that I can't get any xp from mobs that aren't AT LEAST one level higher than me. Which is kinda dumb, but yeah. That's kinda annoying.

Just a warning...There's a good chance that from now on, my blog entries are going to be even more scattered than normal. I'm gonna be blogging while waiting for Nereus to heal. Nereus is the name of my character, by the way. I started him whilst I was dating Sarah, when she wanted to get back into the game, and I wanted to join her. She forced me to quest for like...weeks. Drove me nuts. But now I have a mystic portal, a bag of holding, and gloves of might. Jared was impressed, so I'd say it was probably worth it. But yeah...Back to the point, my thoughts will be scattered 'cause I'll be writing at different times, so it's not just one long rant. It's a bunch of smaller ones. Yeah.

I'm FAR too distracted to do this right now...Maybe later...

Until next time,
I'm STILL not gay.
~Kataron

Pretty Girl

Wow. That's two parties since the Break started, and two nights I've missed updates. Oh well. Totally freakin' worth it. I ended up heading to the mall yesterday around...2pm or so, and met Jared, Seth, and Scott there. I'd never met Scott before. The first thing he said to me was 'I'm not gay or anything...But you're like...The sexiest guy I've ever seen'. I had no idea what to say to that :p So I said ''kay...'. Yeah. Apparently, he'd heard a bunch of stories and stuff about me. I'm a freakin' legend, baby. YEAH! We wandered around the mall for a while, went to McDonald's, and a couple other places. It was great. We hung out in EB for a while, and we all talked about games. It was awesome. I also bought a Playstation thing, a gun. It's most awesome. I'm never gonna use it, but I just like having fake guns. Yep.
We hung around the mall until about...Five? Then we took a couple buses to Jared's place, picked up a couple things, and wandered over to Chris', where we played video games for a while. It was awesome. Budokai 3 tournaments, and a couple other games. Then pizza.
AND CRAPHANDS! I will go into no more details than that, so as to remain as vague as possible. VAGUE!

Then we wandered back to Jared's house, but we left Eric and Rick with Chris. So it was just Jared, Seth, Scott, and myself. Which was fun. Very fun. We just generically hung out for a while, then we watched the Animatrix, and then played a weird clay game, and listened to a bunch of music. Oh, and we listened to a bunch of comedy stuff done by...Yeah, I forget who it was. Funny, though.

After a while, we slept, and woke up the next morning. I woke up to see Seth standing directly above me, looking down at me. It was really creepy. I stared at him for a moment, then he started laughing and went back to his spot. Seth laughs A LOT. It's hilarious. Yeah. We hung out for a bit, then Seth's dad came and took Seth and Scott away. *single tear* Then Jared and I hung out for a couple hours, and played a bit of Mordor. God, it's been AGES. Now I have to get back into it. AGAIN. *shakes fist*

We also reviewed all of the video-taping that Jared had done since Seth and Scott arrived. It was so funny. There was a lot with me, and I said things that I didn't remember saying. I also didn't know Seth was filming for like....five-ten minutes. I realized SHORTLY after I mentioned phone sex. So yeah. There's a lot of embarassing things on those tapes. Also, the fantastic tale of craphands, captured on tape for the ages! Yep.

It was a lot of fun. I'm glad I met Scott, and Seth is always cool. It was great to see him again.

I'm afraid I don't have much else to say...But in my defense, I haven't had much sleep, and I'm tired. So I think I'm gonna go sleep or something. Yeah.

Until next time,
I tell you, I'm not gay!
~Kataron

Seven Years Broken

Maaaaaan...That party last night was FUCKING AWESOME.

For the first few hours, it was just Mitch, myself, and anime. Some damn fine anime. Lots of pointless nudity and blood! But before all that, Mitch showed off his speakers. HOT DAMN. That, with the R4 program thing he has on his computer...INCREDIBLE! The R4 program was a musical visualization program, like the little visual dealies you get with...Say, Windows Media Player. There were some absolutely incredible visualizations. And the music was GREAT. The surround-sound footsteps that started one of the songs was creepy...Creepily AWESOME! And before THAT, I got to see a couple OVA's while Mitch was making wires to connect the surround-sound. Including a Tales of Phantasia OVA! It was amazing! Oh, Klarth, you are so much cooler-looking than I would have thought! Heh...That was an absolutely INCREDIBLE SNES RPG. I mean, hot damn! So good. And some GREAT lines in there...

(Klarth talking about Arche when she joins the team)

"I bet she's a tiger in the sack."

Oh, Klarth. You old horndog, you. There was also an incredibly funny dream that Arche had about Cless, the main character...If you talk to her while she's sleeping, she basically says what she's saying in her erotic dream of the main character. Harder, Cless! The others were drunk off their asses at the time, so they found it hilarious. I wasn't, and I still did! Yeah. Good game.

If you have a lot of free time, and internet access (which you CLEARLY do...), find a ROM site, try it out.

Anyways, back to the party :p

Started with the OVA's, then music, then anime. We only got up to episode six (out of thirteen) when it messed up, though :( An error was made while burning it, and episode 7-10 or so were fucked up. Woe! Now I don't know how it ends! What becomes of Nyuu?! I MUST KNOW! Mitch said he'll burn it again after he re-downloads it, then we can finish it later. So that's good. Right after we found out that those episodes were fucked, Pete showed up. Then the party REALLY started. Pete's so cool. And hilarious! He seemed to have more facial hair since the last time I saw him, too. But yeah, then we watched a funny OVA. Lots of meaningless sex, spaceship battles, and a wolf-man. What more can you ask for? Two hot anime chicks fighting each other with swords? Hell, it had that, too! Yep. The plot was stupid, and it had those cliche characters that are just there for comic relief, and constantly laughing, but it was still good. But yeah, after that ended, we....What did we do? Well, Ron and Kevin showed up while we were checking out some music, and a few funny videos from Ebaum's World. Heheheh...The videos were made even funnier by our commentary :) Well, when they showed up, we hooked up a tiny and amusing keyboard to a giant speaker. It was played quite well, and it was all just hilarious.

At this point, I think went downstairs and a few of the people 'toked up' or whatever the kids are saying these days. People are so funny when they're on drugs or drunk. I wasn't the only one who abstained from the aforementioned activities, as Pete didn't join in either. So yeah. Then we watched Fantasia 2000. That's an awesome movie to watch with people that are high. It's entirely done to the music, so a lot of it made no sense anyway. Plus, the references to video games were awesome. Mitch was laughing for minutes when Ron decided that one of the cartoons about a bunch of flying whales was an RPG, and that the Blue Whale had just reached level 3, and found an antidote. Great stuff. At this time, it was around 2am, so we figured we should find food. So what to do? Sun Sun's, of course! Man...I'd never been there late at night before. SO cheap. Amazing! Pete drove us to Guelph in his car, which was quite entertaining on it's own. The music was great, and the ride started off very...Interestingly. The windows were covered in a layer of frost, and Pete refused to go and scrape it, so he drove for a while just looking through a very small hole in the frost near the bottom of the windshield. As we drove, it melted, but for quite a while, we couldn't see ANYTHING. After hitting Sun Sun's, we stopped off at Pete's house, where he grabbed HIS computer, which we brought back to Mitch's and hooked up to watch movies on.

So yeah, by the time we got back, everybody was pretty tired. Mitch was falling asleep on the drive home, and only the loud music woke him every now and then. I disctinctly remember a song about a 'Green Rossetta'(sp?), which was pretty good. And this whole crazy song by...Frank Zappa, I think, telling a crazy story about some guy that...Well, it's just too crazy to put into words on here. You'd have to listen to it, but I don't know what it was called. So yeah. Anyways, we got back to Mitch's, and set up Pete's computer, and started to watch Ong Bak or whatever. The plot in that movie sucked some serious ass, and I fell asleep before any major fight scenes happened. I only woke up at 5:37am when Pete, Ron, and Kevin were leaving. Then more sleep. Then home.

The rest of the day was dedicated to San Andreas.

Yeah...I figured that it was such a fun party, that I had to give you all a play-by-play.

But I have other news.

Seth should be in town now. Seth! SETH! So cool. I can't wait to see him tomorrow. :D:D:D:D

The plans are still not completely formulated, but doing such would take work. So they'll get done sometime before they happen.

Also! For those of you that know about video games and such, you may have heard of the lawsuit between Marvel and City of Heroes. They were pissed because you can create characters that are virtually identical to Marvel heroes. Oh, suck it up. As far as I can tell, they've either just lost, or are losing. TAKE THAT! It kind of makes me want to create a blatant Marvel rip-off, just to spite them. But I won't.

Yeah...What else is there to discuss? I've told you all about everything that's happened so far...I guess I could tell of you of things I intend to do...

Well, tomorrow is Seth Day. We're probably gonna go to Chris' house. I've met him once, but he's a good friend of Eric, and is home alone with lots of video games and money. Also, I think Jared knows him. Yep. So that's probably the plan for TOMORROW...Not completely figured out yet, but it's getting there :)

On Wednesday, I'm gonna get together with Dave. Not sure what we're doing, but it will probably involve video games. Most things I do involve video games.

Then Thursday, FF7 party at Sarah's. We'll see how far we can get into the game before they grow weary of my nearly encyclopedic knowledge of FF7 and kill me. Only time will tell!

Yeah. I think we might be doing voice stuff for the flash dealy that Jared and Sarah are doing...But I'm not completely sure. I could check, I have it in my email or in a comment on here, but that would be work. Yeah.

Then there's the weekend. I don't have any plans for the weekend yet, but we'll see how that works out. I'm sure SOMETHING will come up. If not, then I spend the last couple days of March Break relaxing and lazing around. I can think of far worse things to do.

Hrm...There's probably other stuff I want to say on here. But I have virtually no idea what it is. So I'm just gonna rant about something.

Drunk people are so funny. I hadn't realized just how many of them are downtown at 2am. It's like the entire population of Rockwood! Well...More, 'cause I'm the only person that LIVES in Rockwood. I assume. Yeah. It's funny 'cause they don't know what's going on. I remember seeing a guy giving either a thumbs-up, or a hitch-hiker's sideways thumb thing to a chick in a car, and she TOTALLY shot him down. It was so funny. We deliberated on whether or not to roll down the windows and laugh at him. But then we were gone. I can't wait until I have my license, I'm gonna go downtown really late at night, eat cheap chinese food, and laugh at drunk people. That's MY plan.

And apparently, some guy set himself on fire in front of some important building, where farmers were protesting. Let me just take this moment to say 'AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!'. Yeah. Funny stuff. Fire.

Oh, and one of the videos on Ebaum's World had some guy that was threatening to kill himself with a knife. They TOTALLY hit him with the car, the cops did. It was hilarious. They weren't going very fast the first time, though. The second time, they pinned him between the car and something else. It was great, they broke his wrist or something. LAWSUIT!

You know what? I HATE poetry. I just simply despise it. Oh, wow, rhyming words. And the poetry that doesn't even rhyme, that just pisses me off in general. I refuse to dignify that as poetry. Some poetry, I dislike less, but I still dislike pretty much all of it. Yeah.

Right...I think I'm done with this for the night.

Until next time,
Make it greasy, it'll go down easy.
~Kataron

Anachronism

a·nach·ro·nism

1. The representation of someone as existing or something as happening in other than chronological, proper, or historical order.

2. One that is out of its proper or chronological order, especially a person or practice that belongs to an earlier time: “A new age had plainly dawned, an age that made the institution of a segregated picnic seem an anachronism” (Henry Louis Gates, Jr.).


Yeah...I was just wondering what the name of the song meant. So dictionary.com told me. Of course, I don't have the attention span to READ the definition, but still. :D

Interesting day today...Started with getting wired off my ass on syrup. Then calculus. Then we finished Hamlet today in English. w00t. I was the best damn Laertes there could ever be. Yeah.

Programming pissed me right off, though. It was all fine until I left to use the washroom. I returned to find my computer turned off, my keyboard and mouse flipped, and my wheely chair replaced with a FLIPPED stool. This was all perfectly acceptable. Hell, I expected it. Not the chair though, that was clever. But they crossed the fucking line. They went INTO my backpack, and took my bottle of syrup. I tried for the rest of the class to get it back. I was freaking out by the end of the class. Actually freaking out, not very pleasant. The rest of the fucking class I tried to get it back. Then when we left, the hid it in the class, and I didn't know. I wouldn't have found it, except two girls in the class pointed it out to me as they were leaving. But no matter...Those that crossed me SHALL regret it. I assure you of that.

Yeah...At that point I was still freaked out and VERY pissed off at Jared/Matt/Ben/Mitch, so I spent the beginning of lunch wandering on my own with my music, then found somewhere to curl up in the fetal position and be overwhelmed by my emotions. Apparently Jared was in the caf with others, and I think Mitch left early. They're the only people I hang out with at lunch, so yeah. Not an overly pleasant lunch.

But I felt much less angry after I'd written a few pages into my little journal dealy. An entire rant against her. But still pissed off.

Anyways, the moral of the story is that I'm going to an anime thing at Mitch's tomorrow, so there's an incredibly good chance that I won't update, unless I update in the afternoon. *shrug*

And I'm getting pissed off again, so I'm going to bed.

Until next time,
The next person that tries to take my things will regret it. Mark these words. MARK THEM.
~Kataron

His First Good Deed

How many of you have had that powerful urge to do something really, REALLY stupid?

I know I have!

Interesting day today. Shortened, too. What the fuck is so gross about me drinking straight 'Sno Kone' syrup?! That shit packs a punch! Wowza! Good stuff.

Yeah. Wandered around drinking that before class started. 'twas fun. Quiz in Calculus. Wasn't too hard. Yay doing homework and having a clue what to do on the quiz! :D That took up pretty much the whole period. The whole shortened period, but the whole period nonetheless. English was fun. Wait...Not just fun....Rather fun! Yay! We're on the second-last scene in Hamlet, and I was forced to choose a part. Teacher was going through asking for volunteers, and then with like...five hands up (of people who go on a regular to semi-regular basis), then asked me which part I'll be playing. If, of course, said Laertes. It was narrowed down to either Laertes or Hamlet at this point. BOOYAH! And the best part is...That this was the fight scene between Laertes and Hamlet! The fact that I was COMPLETELY WIRED on that magnificient syrup only made it that much more fun! Yay! Then in programming, Kaune wasn't there, so not much was accomplished. I mostly just sat there and was wired. Checked a couple websites, including thinkgeek. Man, that place has some COOL shit. Yeah. Then I had my spare, so I just kinda wandered over to Food Basics. Then I came back, and hung out until I found Beth. Then I followed her around for a bit, and then a bunch of ninjas tried to kill me. I foiled their diabolical schemes, but then Beth was gone. So I shrugged and kept walking. At this point, somebody came up and took the Coke out of my backpack, and proceeded to drink it while I gave them an odd look, then I walked away. I was holding a 2 litre at the time, so I'll be damned if I cared. Plus I had the syrup. The mystical syrup! Praise BE to the syrup! PRAISE be to the syrup! Sirrah! What the FUCK does sirrah mean? Oh wait. I have a vague idea, but don't care. After this happened, I wandered, and drank, and wandered. Then the bell rang, and Rick found me at my locker. We spent the next undefined period of time looking for Jared, and we found him. Or should I say the tracking device I implanted in his left nostril found him! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Yeah...Then more wandering was commenced, then I was home. There was quite probably a transition between these, but I clearly don't remember it. Then I played GTA: San Andreas all afternoon. Fun fun fun. I like 'capping' 'homies'. Whatever that means. :D

FUCK. I had something that I wanted to rant about...WHAT WAS IT?! Blast!Feh.

It was parent/teacher interviews today, so we got out early so there'd be time. I remember when I used to go to those. Stopped after grade 10 when my parents realized that it made no difference. Kinda pointless when they always say the same thing, isn't it?

'He could do better if he put a bit of effort into it.'

It's been said a bunch of times, in a bunch of different ways. I get it. I have no initiative. I lose interest in things very fast. Speaking of which, this is starting to bore me.

TIME TO SLAY THE JABBERWOCKY! Fucker. Thinks he can take ME, does he! You're going down, and then your dark masters! I shall return the seed!

(No, not THAT one. I'm making a reference to Secret of Mana. If you don't understand it, then you have no reason to live.)

Until next time,
I feel like I should be carrying around an oversized weapon at ALL times.
~Kataron

Beyond Comprehension

Mind...Filled with scrambled thoughts..It's like some sort of grab-bag of hilarity!

*grabs a thought*

'Schweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.'

That wasn't that funny...Dammit all. Well, I tried.

Anyways, today was a pretty fucking awesome day, though I can now only remember a limited portion of it. It was...Aw, fuck. Waikikki Wednesday or something. The first word is quite probably spelled wrong, but oh well. 'twas fun. First period was...Well, first period. Same as it always is. Second was kinda boring. Although there WAS a quiz that was incredibly fucking easy. I mean, I think I aced it, and I don't pay attention in that class. It was just that easy. Hamlet is so booooooring. But it's funny when people pronounce words wrong. We're finally getting to the good act. The final act. The act where everybody dies. Wheeeeee! :D Yep.

I skipped third with Jared. We checked out a music thing in the E.L. Fox hall dealy. It was fucking awesome. The music was great, and there were some interesting people around for Jared and I to comment on. We named people based on what they were wearing. Pink skirt girl. Turquoise shirt girl. Checkered bandana girl. Ignore the fact that they're all female. Yeah...Then we found Beth, and followed her to where she was getting picked up. Fun conversation there. Then we found Tamara, and wandered with her to the caf. There, they had the whole Snow Cone machine dealy set up. Those were tasty. We hung around there for the rest of third, then lunch, and then we helped clean up afterwards. It was a good time all around. Cool people. Yep. And I got to take home the remnants of a thing of Snow Cone Syrup! :D:D:D:D:D Liquid sugar. Wheeeeee. Great stuff.

Yeah. That was pretty much my day. I'll be coming down any time now, and that's gonna be REALLY bad, so I'll try to have ended this post by then. But if I start to get all depressed, then that's why.

Blargh. I really want to get a new computer sometime soon...The one I have no is completely fucked. 7.8 gig hard drive space...The disk drive won't open....Pentium 2...And the keyboard is completely fucked. That's not really the computer, and could be replaced by itself, but still...Piece of shit.

Yeah...I wanna read webcomics now...And there's nothing I really have to discuss...No incurred rants...I was too wired to think much today. Maybe tomorrow. Shortened day ^_^

Until next time,
Goat. Goat. Goat. Goat. Cheeeeeeeeeeese.
~Kataron

Ask DNA

I've made a couple observations today. Let's see if I can remember them.

Well, one I made before, and continue to make, is that girls tend to throw around the term 'love'. I mean, I look at many of my friends, and they talk about how they love each other, blah blah, etc. I think that it's almost a misuse of the word, but I'm going more by my personal definition of it. I reserve it for only EXTREMELY good friends, and for females that I feel incredibly strong feelings for. I sometimes hear people say things like 'I love everyone'. I think that's just dumb. Most people out there are not deserving of any such affection, nor do some want it.

I don't even like that word. Love. Love, in my opinion, is weakness. Lowering your defenses so that you can get stabbed in the back. If you haven't been stabbed in the back by somebody you love yet, then just you wait. It'll happen. It always does.

But I don't want to discuss love anymore. Horrid topic. Plus, a lot of you disagree with me. I don't want comments about how I'm wrong, blah, blah, blah. Love's such a great thing, etc, and other stupid comments. So let's move on.

I was in the library today, and a girl and a counsellor or something sat down at the table next to me, and were talking about her schoolwork and such. And it occurred to me...How many times do they hear that shit? How many times do they hear that 'such-and-such' is unfair, and all this other shit? They don't care. I theorize that to them, you're just another obstacle between them and whatever they're going for. They just want to get from point A to point B. And you are an obstacle. And if helping you removes the obstacle, then so be it. That's what THEY care about. How many times do they say the same little things, over and over again? Enough times for them to lose all meaning, I'd say. Strategy, goals, all that other shit. What does it all mean?

Pah. That was just an observation I made while I was in the library. I tried not to eavesdrop too much, but it's always fun. Plus, the girl was kinda cute.

Aaaaaaaanyways.

Generically boring day today. Normal boring calculus. Normal boring English. Normal boring programming. And during my spare, I mostly just did Calculus homework in the library.

Oh, that brings me to a rant. Another busbitch rant. All right, so the bus is a rather enclosed space. That means that sound can travel pretty well there. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP. Goddamn stupid loud bitches with their motherfucking WHINY voices. The bus driver tells them to be quiet, but they just won't fucking listen. It gets me mad enough to actually call the bus service or something and complain. It's bad enough that I'm trying to have a conversation with the person sitting directly behind me, but I can't hear what he's saying over their FUCKING HIGH-PITCHED SCREETCHING. And they were sitting a few seats behind us, and on the other side of the bus. Fucking bullshit is what it is. I'm getting sick of it. And when I'm not talking to people, and have my discman on, I can STILL hear them, with the volume on full.

And who do I go to if I want to complain about that? They go to Heights, so there's very little I can do at my school. My bus drive has no fucking control over them, as she's clearly demonstrated on many occasions. I think the only thing I CAN do is complain directly to the bus service. Which I was considering this afternoon, but I didn't know the bitch's last name, or the number of my bus or anything. So it'd be kinda hard without that. But yeah. Fucking bitches is what they are. One in particular. Julianne or some such name. Fucking whorebitch. If I had a gun or something, there's a good chance she'd be dead. But I'm just a very angry person. Angry and bitter.

Yeah...Anything else that needs ranting? I haven't heard anything of note in the news today...Though the only news I read is gaming news. The only thing I read today was about how Bungie is apparently NOT doubling their staff, so no Halo 3 in the near future. Oh well. One day.

I want more HTML stuff done here...Yeah.

Moooooooooooo.

Until next time,
Disregard the monkey on your shoulder.
~Kataron

Demonik Elektronik

Iiiiiiiiiiiinteresting day today.

As it turns out, I'm getting 23% in calculus.

And my brain appears to have stopped functioning. But I'll keep writing anyway. Yeah. Failing Calculus, English was boring, and Programming was as programming always is.

THEN...

Somebody that works in the office saw Jared and I at lunch, and gave us $10 to get cake. To each get our own cake. Pretty freaking awesome. JUST because she'd seen us around exams with cake. She decided she'd treat us to cake. Thanks!

Then my spare came around, and I got kicked out of my generic area. Apparently, I'm not allowed to be anywhere other than library or caf during class. Communist bullshit is what it is. But, while in the library, I DID finish my Calculus homework. Go me!

Then!

I met my dad's next boss, who apparently owns the entire plaza with the Shell Station, and some other stores. He's a 23-year old millionaire with a kick-ass computer, hooked up to a wide-screen plasma television as his monitor. Fucking incredible. He's gonna take me parts-shopping sometime, where he gets his stuff, and I'm gonna get me some cheap parts. Wheeeeeee! I just need to figure out what I want. Then it's new compy for Nate. If I can improve in Calculus, that is...

But yeah. Interesting day, in total...Pretty good, for the most part. So far, I'm rather disappointed with the end. But that can hardly be helped. Yeah...Is there anything more for me to talk about? Hrm...This is always the hard part. When I run out of topics.

Dammit all. I've gone from thinking about how much of a great day I had to being full-fledged depressed again.

Right...I've been asking myself this over and over again in my mind, but I didn't want to put it on here. Now I figure I might as well.

Is there something wrong with me?

Is there something that just...drives girls away from me?

My first gf dated me and another guy at the same time.

My second was...Well, you pretty much all know by now.

And my third...Topless dancing, we'll leave it at that.

That's three for three there. Is there something wrong with me? There must be something...Asking people doesn't really seem to work. So I'm asking here. Post anonymously if you like. Tell me what you think. But try to keep the insults down to a dull roar, if you don't mind. And no joking, everything posted as a comment, I will take quite seriously. So no jokes, no sarcasm. Just opinion. I just want to know what people think.

Anyways, I'm done with this for the night. I have things to think about.

Until next time,
Witty comments are hard to come up with every goddamn night.
~Kataron

Fear And Courage

If your opponent is of choleric temper, seek to irritate him.

Greetings, folks.

Man...Today seems so goddamn boring compared to yesterday...I mean, yesterday, I was up at 10, and spent the entire day working on the drama. Today, I got up around noon, did my internet thing, then I went over to Rick's for an afternoon of Diablo 2. My assassin is now in Act 3. w00t. I'm coming for you, Diablo. Yep. Then I came home and had dinner, then bathing, then helping my brother breed a Gold Chocobo. Took him all day. Took me an entire weekend, but I was a lower level, had no money, no w-item materia, and a bunch of other stuff. Plus, that was my first time doing it. Good times...

I remember that weekend VERY well. My brother and mom were sick, so they spent all weekend lying around downstairs watching tv and occasionally throwing up. I spent the ENTIRE weekend in my room, not bothering to even get dressed. As far as I can remember, I only went outside once, and that was to go down the street for some reason. I lived off chicken. I think it was from KFC. Yeah, definately KFC. Since the others were sick, they couldn't really eat it, so there were lots of leftovers. I ate only that and chips all weekend. People were too sick to even cook a regular meal. I remember as I went through it, spending an hour or two catching the right chocobos...Spending AGES racing them...Oh, and spending hour upon hour making enough money to afford enough Sylkis greens....DAMN. Those fuckers were expensive. 5,000 gil a piece...My brother was actually trying to do it today with cheap greens, only 1,000 a piece...Insolent mortal. I showed him where to go to get the good ones. But that took most of my time right there. It was also a bitch waiting until the chocobos could breed. Either again, for the first pair, or until they were old enough for the others. Yep. Annoying.

Erg...I just found pictures of her on my hard drive...I guess I missed these three, forgot to delete them...Yerg. I finally stop thinking about her, and then I find these fucking pictures. I don't even know how to feel about anything right now. God damn it.

*20 minutes later*

Grr...I found more pictures of her. A few more. They've all been purged from my system now.

Well, my evening's ruined.

Until next time,
Just when you think it's over...
~Kataron

Magus Decay Of Hope

Oh, I almost forgot to comment on one thing. According to an interesting news site that I stumbled across today, some kid is being charged for terrorism because of a short story that he wrote.

This story was apparently a school assignment, and he decided to write about zombies overtaking the school.

...You know what? Fuck it, I'm just gonna copy and paste the entire article into here. Enjoy.

'Student Arrested For Terroristic Threatening Says Incident A Misunderstanding
A George Rogers Clark High School junior arrested Tuesday for making terrorist threats told LEX 18 News Thursday that the "writings" that got him arrested are being taken out of context.
Winchester police say William Poole, 18, was taken into custody Tuesday morning. Investigators say they discovered materials at Poole's home that outline possible acts of violence aimed at students, teachers, and police.

Poole told LEX 18 that the whole incident is a big misunderstanding. He claims that what his grandparents found in his journal and turned into police was a short story he wrote for English class.

"My story is based on fiction," said Poole, who faces a second-degree felony terrorist threatening charge. "It's a fake story. I made it up. I've been working on one of my short stories, (and) the short story they found was about zombies. Yes, it did say a high school. It was about a high school over ran by zombies."

Even so, police say the nature of the story makes it a felony. "Anytime you make any threat or possess matter involving a school or function it's a felony in the state of Kentucky," said Winchester Police detective Steven Caudill.

Poole disputes that he was threatening anyone.

"It didn't mention nobody who lives in Clark County, didn't mention (George Rogers Clark High School), didn't mention no principal or cops, nothing,"said Poole. "Half the people at high school know me. They know I'm not that stupid, that crazy."

On Thursday, a judge raised Poole's bond from one to five thousand dollars after prosecutors requested it, citing the seriousness of the charge.

Poole is being held at the Clark County Detention Center. '

This article was linked from a few sites, including Evil Avatar, Ain't It Cool News, and was originally posted on Lex18. There we are.

This is just fucking stupid. And I don't think I need to say why.

Yeah. Just thought you should know. And you know what? I think I'm gonna write about zombies overrunning Ross. See if I get arrested. But shucks, my grandparents are dead. Guess they can't turn in my journal.

Until next time,
News sites are so entertaining.
~Kataron

Time's New Scar

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
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Hi. Nate here. Yep. THAT Nate. You know, the sadistic bastard. Yeah, that one. Yo.

We finally presented our Drama tonight. It was AMAZING! Everybody loved it! I was so nervous when we were starting...For the first song, and the intermission that followed, I was so very nervous...I kept worrying that they wouldn't like it and all that, or that we'd mess up, or the Godzilla would come and crush us, just like LAST time. I assume that happened. But hot damn, it was great. I saw people there that I didn't expect, including the mother of a friend of mine. Well, two mothers of two friends of mine, technically. Yep. That made me a little more nervous, but most of the people that were there, I didn't know at all. A bunch of old people that attend the church or whatever. And they LOVED us. We've been taking everything so seriously lately that I'd forgotten it was supposed to be funny. I got freaked out during the first song, and they started laughing. Then I remembered how funny it was. I'd go over the different songs, and what we do, but quite frankly, I don't remember. So...If you wanna find out, come to the next performance we're gonna do, which won't be for at least three weeks. One of our stars, my pharisee brother, is going to Nicaragua. Yep. But man, it was so well done. I'm susprised. A few days ago, I thought we were completely screwed. But we pulled it off. The sets came together so well in the end, and the props, and the costumes... :) wheeeeeee. The costumes were GREAT. I mean, when we were the Roman Guards, with our armour made entirely of CD's, we just needed to walk out there, stand around for a little bit, and then they started applauding us. It was most awesome. And the pharisee costumes were SO well liked. We just needed to walk out there, and again, applause. Those costumes consisted of bathrobes (well, a lot of the costumes did...), fake beards, and tea towels (or whatever they're called) on our heads. Everybody loved it. Jake and I made great pharisees, and we ended up being them twice. Great fun. The rehearsal went quite well, except for a few setbacks. The lights were a bitch to figure out, but they worked really well. The sound system was AWESOME. Although, we did have to run all of the music off of the PS2 we had there, so that there would be a visual to show what song it was. Dave was a really good director while the others were gone. Greg wasn't there yet, 'cause he had something else to do at HIS church, so couldn't get there until 2, and the two other adults, Andrew and Peter, went out to buy stuff, and came back with pizza and coke. 2 large pizzas, and 24 cans of coke. Wheeeee. We ended up covering about half the drama while they were gone, it was really good.

In the end, we raised about eight-HUNDRED dollars. Hot damn. That's a lot of money. At $15 a ticket, we completely sold out, with 70 people. We should have had something for donations, though. Especially since it was so well recieved. We could have scammed them into giving us more money...I mentioned it to Gord afterwards, as he was counting all the money, and he said that we should say at the end, something like 'If you feel called to help us...' so that people will feel more inclined to help us. I thought it was a damn fine idea. We were also told to take this to different churches, which I think we just might do. At least one more show in Rockwood, though. We've got enough other people that wanted to see it. The dinner part went really well, too. A bunch of women came in and cooked for everybody. The wife of the guy that was doing all of our sets, and a bunch of other people that I don't know at all. The only catch was that we had to do the dishes. Interestingly enough, we totally didn't. We finished, people were leaving, and a bunch of women were in the back cleaning the dishes. I figured that after a meal, women have a natural urge to clean the dishes. And I stated that to anyone that would listen to me. It was pointed out to me that a guy was helping, but I just whipped whoever said that. I need a whip. I'm going to buy a whip. Whips are awesome. But...Yeah.

It was kinda creepy, it didn't look like there were that many people there when they were all sitting down...But when I went out during one of the intermissions, HOLY FREAKING CRAP! They were all up and stuff. Getting food. All seventy of them. It looked like a hell of a lot more people. Craziness.

I can't WAIT to present this again! It was soooooooo much fun! Everybody in the cast was totally awesome!

Dammit all. Now Beth is 'GIRLMAD' at me because I've never actually eaten pie. Bah! How does one cure 'GIRLMAD'? There must be a way...But she won't tell me, because she's 'GIRLMAD' at me. Much research will need to be put into this subject....To the lab!

*runs off to the lab*

*walks back*

Wait...Finish blog post first, THEN to the lab!

'kay. Man...I got up at 10 for the drama. 10. That is an UnGodly hour on a Saturday. Who the fuck gets up before noon on a Saturday? Madness, I say. Madness. Of course, I didn't GET to the youth group until 10:30. I needed food. And...Internet. I had webcomics to check, and blogs, and...internet news sites! Which brings me to an entirely unrelated rant, but I'll do that in a bit. Yeah...It's pissy. I'd rather get through the un-pissy drama related stuff now. So yeah, the rehearsal was totally awesome. It was so weird to do it in full costumes. The pharisee costumes was REALLY hot. Bathrobe, fake beard, thing on head...And I had to wear it for two straight songs. And the second was like...nine minutes. I was sweating like a pig by the end of it. NOT pleasant. But still fun, because people laughed. A few on-the-spot changes were good, too. I heard about one or two that were good, but I didn't actually SEE them, being offstage for most of it, or concentrating on certain things. I liked one change I made, which was when I was Doubting Thomas. Well, we all had nametags that said 'I'm with Jesus', and I had mine turned the wrong way, since I was all doubting and stuff. At one point, I come out and just missed Jesus, and then he comes out, and taps me on the shoulder, after I'm all doubty and stuff. Then I turn around, look down for a second, then switch my nametag to the other side, then fell to my knees. Yeah, the part of the crowd that could see that LOVED it. Yep. I didn't even notice, 'cause I was so concentrated on what I was doing. Greg told me afterwards.

At the end, people came up and said how good we did, and how great we are, and I usually said something like 'Thanks. We're going to enjoy spending your money'. The first time I said that, a bunch of people hit me. Then I said it a few more times, to different people. It was great. We can actually do things now! In the youth group! Maybe fix some stuff that's broken, and...like...go places! w00t.

Anyways...On to the PISSY rant.

One of my favourite webcomics, Ctrl+Alt+Del, recently linked to an interview done by the author, Tim Buckley, about video game violence. And it's link to real violence. It also had a stupid lawyer's interview about it. They were pretty much polar opposites. Of course, the lawyer was a fuckwit. Probably never played a video game in his life, and wouldn't know the first thing about whether or not it would actually drive people to be violent. All they have are stupid pointless studies, which probably have very inconclusive evidence. Yeah, you wanna blame video games for people being violent? Why not blame the movies, with all of their gore and murder? Or hell, the news, for telling stories of how such-and-such killed seventeen people today, complete with colour pictures! Or you know what? Let's just sue the fucking President of the United States. Yeah. That fucker had that whole war thing going on. Loads of lives lost. But nobody's blaming HIM. So instead, let's blame video games for the violence of fucked up people. Yeah, if a video game is going to drive somebody to be violent, then they were violent in the first place, or very fucked up. A normal person isn't going to kill a bunch of people simply because he played a game where he shot some people. That's not how it works. If the person were fucked up already, then maybe. But who's to say it wouldn't happen because of a violent movie, or something else? You can't just blame video games. You fucking stupid asswipes.

Right...I'm going back over and rereading the interviews, so I should have specifics for you in the next paragraph...Firstly, the interview with the fuckwit. Err...Lawyer. No, fuckwit worked better.

Dear Lord. This man is an ignorant shit-stain.

First off, I'll link you, in case you wish to read the article itself.

That done, I'll quote.

'How many hate or violent crimes would you say are linked to or directly related to violence in video games?

I have no earthly idea, and no one can guess at that. I can tell you that some crimes would not occur but for the violent entertainment. For the families of the deceased, that is the only statistic that matters.'

Oh, going for the sympathy approach, eh? Note that he doesn't give facts. He doesn't say anything important. He just points the finger. You can tell us that, eh? You can tell us that some crimes would not occur but for the violent entertainment? How about how some crimes would not occur if there weren't so many goddamn guns in your country (he's an American, I'm guessing. He says America at one point, so yeah...), or how they wouldn't occur if you didn't have a bloodthirsty tyrant as a leader? Bastard.

'Is there a correlation between playing violent video games and acting in a violent manner?

Of course. Every parent who is paying attention knows that it is garbage in, garbage out with kids.

The heads of six major health care organizations testified before Congress that there are "hundreds" of studies that prove the link. All the video game industry has are studies paid for by them, which are geared to find the opposite result. Lawyers call such experts "whores." '

Yeah, and you don't think the studies that you have are biased, as well? In all honesty, can ANY study prove ANYTHING about this? I don't think so. It depends on the games the people play, the environment they grow up in, all sorts of things. I bet that they just clump video games together. If somebody loves racing games, then kills his parents, they blame video games. Probably a stretch there, but you get the point. You can do all the fucking studies you want, you won't prove anything. Six major health care organizations? Psh.

'Is gaming escapism?

Yes, just as Ted Bundy escaped into pornography. It is not a release of aggression. It is training for aggression.'

This is probably one of the quotes that pisses me off the most...Yes, gaming is escapism. It's pointless to deny that. I play video games because real life sucks, and I like to actually be somebody important, even if it's not real. You can't compare playing video games to the sick pasttime of a lunatic. Yeah, Ted Bundy. He had Anti-Social Personality Disorder. Even when he was a child, he killed animals and such. And you're linking the fact that he liked porn to video games? Wow. 'kay, have you ever heard of 'fuckwitism'? You suffer MAJORLY from it.

'Different mediums, as they've come along, have had their share of controversy. From pulp horror and graphic novels, to movies, music and television; is this part of a cycle?

Yes, it is the last cycle. These are murder simulators. Manhunt has been called the video game equivalent of a snuff film. I am working with an Oakland, CA prosecutor in a murder trial in which the older gang members used GTA 3 to train teens to do carjackings and murders. The Army uses these games to break down the inhibition to kill of new recruits.

Look at the Institute for Creative Technologies created by DOD to create these killing games. Tax dollars paid to the industry to create the games to suppress the inhibition to kill, and then the industry turns around and sells these games to kids. One instance is Pandemic Studio's Full Spectrum Warrior. If it works for soldiers, of course it works for teens. The video game industry has absolutely no rebuttal to that argument. NONE. '

You have GOT to be kidding me. You're blaming video games for something because a fucking gang used a video game to teach people carjacking and murder? Do you have ANY idea how fucking stupid that sounds? It's a GANG. Using a VIDEO GAME to train people. I don't know who's stupider, you or the gang. All righty, the Army uses games to break down the inhibition to kill. They could do this in much more unpleasant ways. And you can't blame the industry for the fucked up ways that people use it. It's not their fault that the army uses it.

And for the second paragraph. what argument? Yeah, okay. Video games, DOD, kids. 'kay. Your point? They're going to be made anyway. That's just a fact. And if the government is going to use them, whatever. It's not going to affect whether or not games like this are made. It doesn't change anything.

'Do you think that video games are similar to sports? There are much-touted statistics that link aggression levels to video game playing, but isn't that precisely what happens in any kind of competition?

I'm sorry, but a basketball games goal is to score more points, not maim the other player. That is where sportsmanship comes in. There is no sportsmanship in any GTA game. None. '

First off, what the fuck does 'touted' mean? Second, he seems to be assuming that all video games involve maiming the other players. That's wrong, but they're fucking video games. They're not reality. They're not designed to teach about sportsmanship. Basketball, to some extent, is. Comparing these two is rather pointless in the end, because they were designed for two different things. Next, compare a toothbrush and an MK-47. I wanna see which one cleans teeth better.

And now, let's have an interview with someone who's NOT a complete fuckwit. I have quotes here from Tim Buckley's interview. I love that guy.

'What constitutes violence in video games?

The same things that constitute violence in real life constitute violence in video games. Blood and gore, for instance, is just as much violence in a video game as it is in real life. However there is a psychological difference with video games, in knowing that, just as in movies, what is happening on the screen is not real, and is stylized and even exaggerated. '

Good answer, good answer. He's clearly drawing the line between video games and reality. Because though we play games where we shoot people, we still know that there IS a line. And we know when we've crossed it. Unless someone has a psychological disorder, in which case, it can't really be blamed on the video game industry. It's not THEIR fault that some fucked up person played their game and killed somebody. Try blaming the fucked up person.

'How many hate or violent crimes would you say are linked to or directly related to violence in video games?

Very, very few. I think it may seem like more just because the ones that are in any way related to a video game get so much publicity, it gives us the impression that it's a constant issue, an epidemic even. '

Also a good answer! We don't so often hear about such-and-such killing some people because of something insignificant. People like to point fingers, such as at the video game industry. Blaming THEM for the mistakes of people. So we only hear about the ones where the finger can be pointed, where we can blame somebody.

'Is gaming escapism?

Gaming absolutely is escapism, in the exact same way that a book is. It allows you to be someone else, to go on adventures and experiences that you would never be able to do on your own, and to do some from the comfort and safety of your own home. And I also feel that it is a healthy way to relieve some natural stress and aggression, in the same way a punching bag would be. If you had a bad day at work, better to come home and let loose in a video game than to let loose on your friends and relatives. '

This one here is beyond comment. What can I say? It's all true. All true. You're not gonna go out and sue an author because somebody read their book about murder, and killed somebody, are you? Of course not, that would be silly. Even though the readers would play out the murder scene in their head as the read, imagine everything as it's taking place. But that's still silly.

'Do you think that video games are similar to sports? There are much-touted statistics that link aggression levels to video game playing, but isn't that precisely what happens in any kind of competition?

The goal of any competition is to win.

We hear stories about football players getting drunk, doing drugs, raping girls at parties, injuring people in bars, etc. But I don't hear anyone suggesting that we ban high school football. Aggression is part of competition sometimes. Most people can separate competitive aggression from using aggression to solve trivial problems. Some people can't, and you'll find these people in any hobby imaginable, not just video games. I'm sure that at one point or another a golfer snapped and beat someone to death with a 7-iron.

Let's ban golf, shall we? '

Yet another fine answer! Tim Buckley, I think I love you.

Those are my quotes. Think what you will about the subject, but I'd like to get people's opinions if they read this. Mind you, if you disagree with me, I will flame you. But still, post anyway. But don't post unless you've read both interviews, and have somewhat of an open mind.

I admit, I'm biased. I love video games. And it is because I love video games that I have so many personal experiences with them, and feel that I have earned the right to comment on them, because I actually KNOW what I'm talking about from first-hand experience.

Anyways...Beth is still GIRLMAD at me...Can't have that, can we? TO THE LAB!

Until next time,
I was working in the lab, late one night...
~Kataron

Cry In Sorrow

I don't feel like having some odd and interesting introduction, so this is all you get.

I spent most of the night at the youth group, which was pretty much useless. We never even got around to PRACTICING the drama. Yeah...We're presenting tomorrow. And we never even got around to it. We just got sets worked on and all that, the sound system set up.

But I'm jumping ahead. School was as school always is. Boring. Apparently, people were talking about me this morning. Talking about how I laughed at the person crying that I mentioned yesterday. Yeah. I'm a sadistic bastard. If you didn't know that, then just...stop reading.

'kay, now we're back up to the youth group. I ended up getting depressed, and spending a while sitting and thinking about stuff. And if you've read anything from this blog, you'll know that thinking is bad. For me, at least. I thought about a lot of things...I'm going to talk a bit about one of them, but I won't say what it was. I will say that I shed a few tears about it, hidden away under the counter. If you can't figure out what I'm talking about, then tough. Do NOT ask me about it, because I'm not saying anything.

Why?

Why did this happen to me...?

What exactly did I do wrong?

I must have done something wrong...It must be my fault...

But why? I tried my hardest...I did my best...But it wasn't good enough. Maybe if I had done things differently...

Will things be any differently next time? Hell, will there even be a next time?

Blargh...Such confusion. That's my entry for tonight. I've gotta get up around 10 tomorrow, so I should probably sleep sometime soon. Yeah...Anyways, fuck this. Television, then sleep.

Until next time,
...
~Kataron

Is It Real?

Is it real...? A very good question. A question to which there is no answer. What is real? What our minds, what our senses can see? Pah.

I've always wondered how the minds of others percieve what mine does. Differently? The same? Not at all? This has kept me up late at night, pondering whether I may be the only one that sees things for that they really are. And pondering whether I may be the only one that sees nothing, while others see the truth.

Yes...This is going to be a rather odd post tonight, dear readers. My mind is scattered, and my thoughts are acting of their own accord. I am not positive of the reason, but I have a fairly good idea...But to tell you would be too easy.

Normal day today. Normal...So boring. I despise it. First period, we had a test. It was easy. Second period, I skipped with Jared. Fun fun. We went to Food Basics, then Tim Horton's, then hung out in the caf with none other than Ryan. Much fun. Third, programming...And still, I learned nothing. Nothing new there. We'll be going to the teacher sometime soon, to confront him with our problem. He needs to start actually teaching us. I also had a rather enjoyable lunch, and an enjoyable spare. Natty came and hung out with us at lunch. We talked about Star Trek. I love Star Trek. Then during last period, Mitch and I hung out, and just talked about stuff. Quite fun, then we tried to find people. We failed, but shortly afterwards, people found us. We wandered. Jared danced. Aye...

Yeah...That constitutes a normal day for me.

Yep...The only abnormal thing, I suppose, would be that I bathed tonight, which does not normally happen on Thursdays. But tonight was my last chance to bathe before the performance on Saturday, as I'm going to be spending most of my night tomorrow practicing it, and all day Saturday over there working on it and such. Yep...Odd to think that we've been spending so damn long on this, and it's about to be over. I have fun doing it, but the nights at the drop-in where we did nothing but practice were boring as hell. It'll be nice to go on to other things. Yeah...

There's not really much to discuss here, unless I want to get into personal feelings about stuff. So I will. I'm still damn confused about everything. I've had a lot of time to think about everything tonight, and it doesn't help. If anything, the opposite. Yeah...That's about as far as I'm going into my personal feelings here. The rest will go down in my notebook.

I suppose I could go into a bit more detail about some things today...Ah, something I didn't mention. During lunch, as we moved to our normal spot, there was somebody we know crying. I didn't see her, but Jared told me. A few of my readers will know who I'm talking about. And you probably won't be overly pleased by what I'm about to say, but I laughed. I found it damn funny. Mostly because I despise the person. I always find it amusing when people are in pain, physical or emotional. But it's just plain awesome when it's somebody I dislike. And there's so damn many people that I dislike...Yep. Jared told me because he knew that I would be amused. Good man.

Also, I'll go into slightly more detail about the skipping of second period. Well, Mitch decided that he was too tired for class, since he had rowing practice in the morning. Sounds damn hard. So he wanted to skip, and after a short discussion, Jared and I decided to join him. But then we went somewhere, and didn't know where he was. So we went to Food Basic's, and then Tim Horton's. We found Bobbie Tubbs at Tim Horton's, and walked with him for a while. Jared read off my list of excuses for not being in class. Bobbie seemed to enjoy them. Then we saw Ryan in the caf as we walked by, and decided to join him. We saw Mitch in the caf on the other side, but we hadn't seen Ryan in ages, so we hung out with him. Others came and joined Mitch though, so it was all good. We spoke with Ryan of many things...It was quite fun. We even got into a conversation about Bob. Jared didn't know who it was at first. Last semester, I was quite fond of saying things like 'DAMN YOU, BOB!', so Ryan knew. Hell, he brought it up. To clear things up to Jared, I said 'You know, Bob...The guy that fucked my girlfriend before she dumped me". In the end, we decided that we were going to have a section of the website that Jared will be hosting completely dedicated to flaming Bob. God, I hate him so. And I hate her. I hate her so very much...I hate them all.

I still...I still remember exactly how she told me. Exactly how she phrased it in that goddamn email. The email that I read in the Comm. Tech room during lunch. I remember how I couldn't stay there anymore...How I had to go outside somewhere, but had nowhere to go...How I cried, while leaning against that tree. How I cried after I came back into class. How the tears stained the sheet I had been given. How it seemed like my entire world was just falling apart. I remember how I talked to her on the phone after that, how she begged me for another chance. How I gave it to her. And how she dumped me the next day. Bitch. My friends were right about her all along...I was just too blind to see it.

Damn you, Eva. Damn you, Bob.

Sorry for this little stroll down memory lane...But I still think about it every now and then, and it still hurts like hell. And it's ruined my outlook on dating completely. I don't think I'm ever going to be able to have a relationship again without at least part of me expecting her to cheat on me.

I was reading Hamlet tonight, and I came across that famous line...To be or not to be, that is the question. And that is the question, isn't it? I had never really thought about the line before, what it really meant. To be or not to be...To live or to die. To exist, or to not exist. To keep going, or end it all. And that's the big question that we all wonder at some point, isn't it? I know I've thought about it enough...And can any of us honestly say that we've never even thought about it? If you do say that, then I think you're either lying, or you WILL think about it.

But I suppose that if anybody should be wondering this, it should be Hamlet...His father murdered, his mother remarrying so soon after the death...And to the dead king's brother, no less! The dead king's brother, as well as his murderer...Yep...If anybody has a right to ponder that, it's Hamlet.

What else is there to say? I'm not even sure...So I'm going to end this, and play video games or something. Yes...Video games.

Until next time,
To be or not to be? That is the question, but what is the answer?
~Kataron

Ballad of a Fallen Angel

Oh, how I loathe temporal Dislocation.

Greetings and satulations, gang. Yes, that was not the correct spelling. Do not point this out to me, for I am well aware.

I'd just like to take this moment to inform you all that I'm not particularly fond of Calculus tests. Now, I don't loathe them as much as I loathe temporal dislocation, but still...I totally bombed my test today....Blargh. Blargh, says I! And there's another tomorrow...But it's a graphing calculator one. So hopefully I'll do a bit better there. Yep.

So, my day was fairly normal. Got up, got ready for school, went to school. Had an interesing talk with Eric and Rick on the bus again, but I can't for the life of me remember what it was about. Oh well. Wandered in the morning...Probably should have been studying, but there were so damn many people in the classroom. My desk was taken, and I refuse to sit elsewhere. Also, the other spot I have conquered, where I have my lunch, was also occupied. I didn't feel like finding someplace else, so I wandered and listened to my video game remixes while snapping my fingers. I can't stop snapping my fingers now...It's weird. But yeah. Then the test, which was fucking hard. I forgot two of the most important concepts, but I won't say what they are, 'cause Jared will laugh at me. You'll get no guffaw from me! Then there was second, which was just damn boring and damn easy. Hamlet is so easy...I laugh at people that don't understand what they're saying. But...Yeah. Then programming, which pissed me off GREATLY, but that shall be ranted about seperately. Yep. Then spare, in which I hit Food Basics, AND came up with 17 great excuses for not being in class. :D I can't wait until I can write my own notes!

Anyways...The pissed-off-ness.

Yeah...Mr. Kaune doesn't seem to be TEACHING us anything. He expects us to learn everything we need from websites and examples that he does and posts for us. We're not in a computer programming class so we can read about how to program from the internet. Yeah, I could do that from home. He's the teacher. He should TEACH us. I mean, I was trying to learn today. Actually fucking trying. He came in, and I wanted to ask him about something that was confusing me. He told me to look it up on the website, and that we'd done a lesson on it. Yeah...That's great...You gave us an example program. That doesn't qualify as a 'lesson' in my book. Honestly, I'm not learning anything in the course right now. I had to have Jared come over and explain to me today how to START a program. That seems like the kind of thing I should know by now, doesn't it? Well, I don't. Because I know nothing! A few of us are gonna go and talk to him about it...Because I'll be damned if I'm going to put up with this shit. I want to go into computer programming as my PROFESSION. I'm not learning anything with these damn examples. TEACH ME, DAMMIT! WHY WON'T YOU TEACH ME?!?!?!

Yep...Damn, what else is there to rant about? Hrm...Let's see...Fuck! I had something! WHAT WAS IT? *sigh*

I guess I don't have much to rant about tonight...So let's go to something I wrote down in my notebook today during my spare. I was thinking...About...NPC's. Non-Player Characters. I was thinking today...How simple a life they must lead...I mean, they just stand around...They don't do anything important. But nobody expects them to. Nobody has ANY expectations for them. They're just there. They never have to worry about things, they just say the same phrase over and over...I mean, it's boring, but it's so simple! They don't have to worry about calculus tests, or members of the opposite sex, or...well, anything. Some say things that imply that they're worrying, but that's just superficial. They're only saying it. They have no feelings, no emotion. But that means they can't feel pain. They can't be hurt. They're just there. But then again...To be the hero would be good, too...I mean, then you really matter. You make a difference...People look up to you. But you have a lot of responsiblity on your shoulders...But all in all, I think I'd rather be the hero. Then you matter...You can make a difference...That's what I want to do. But then again, to be an NPC...Life can be pretty rough. Maybe sometimes the life of an NPC is better...But my brain is starting to hurt, I'll talk more about that another time.

Yep...What else is there to say? Geez, if I still had Bob and George to read, I would end the post now, and read that...But I don't! waaaaaah...I could always read one of the many other webcomics that I haven't finished...RPG World...9th Elsewhere....And a few others. But that'd be work. I was REALLY into B&G. Great stuff.

Hrm...Let's talk...About...Sex, baby! Let's talk about you and me!

Sorry...Once the sentence started, it automagically changed to that....I have no control over it. No control...

It's Wendesday. I despise Wednesdays. The very middle of the week...Surrounded on all sides...Although in this case, there are only two sides. But still...Surrounded...I dunno, Wednesdays just bother me. They have for quite some time.

You know, I've heard people say before that people can't be good at RPG's. I've put a bunch of thought into this, and I think that you can be. I mean...People that aren't good at them can get through them. But they won't be great at them, they won't get all of the good items...They won't get the abilities, the secrets. To be GOOD at an RPG, you need to have intelligence. You can't just keep firing a gun at things. You need to figure out the enemy's weakness, exploit it. If the enemy is weak against fire, then burn the fucker. Lightning? Electrocute it. You also need to be able to find the good equipment. I mean, yeah...You could always BUY it....But that's no fun! You have to go out, explore dungeons, FIND the good equipment! Whatever you buy, you can find much better equipment. To be GOOD at RPG's, you must become a mster of side-quests. You must figure out where they are, what you need to do, and complete them. Complete them ALL. You need to master any and all abilities available to you, and unlock any secret ones. Yes, I have played games with secret abilities. Abilities distilled from certain, and incredibly rare items.

I'm sorry to cut that rant off mid-way, but this is completely necessary.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Enterprise will not be coming back for another season...They're...They're cancelling Star Trek. There will always be reruns, but they're all reruns now! Where will we find our original Trek? Those bastards. Those pig-fucking bastards. YOU'LL ALL RUE THE DAY!

Anyways, my brain hurts, so that's the post for tonight. I hope you've enjoyed your serving of slop.

Ah, one last thing. I feel an honourable mention is needed for a fun conversation I had with Beth tonight. She's cool.

And one final warning to Jared....Insult my computer again, and I will crush you. Only I may insult Felix! Yes, my computer has a name. Doesn't yours?

Until next time,
I totally wish I could break-dance.
~Kataron

Time Management

I am ROYALLY pissed right now.

And goddamn rightly so.

Stupid bastars at Square Enix. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?! You've ruined it! You evil people!

What am I ranting about, you ask?

THIS is what I'm talking about.

Look at the screenshots there! They're unbelievable! Watch the trailer! Simply amazing! Yet Square Enix has issued a Cease and Desist, instead of doing something that could, perhaps bring this amazing concept into reality? Dear lord, that would have been incredible! It would have been out by now, too! Chrono Trigger in 3D...

You'll rue the day, Square Enix. I've lost a large amount of respect for your company just now. This would have been amazing. But you killed it. I hope you're proud.

Anyways...I don't want to have this post completely about video games...Or the LACK of video games...

You know, people really shouldn't ask questions that they don't want the answer to. A few questions have been posed to me lately that the person didn't quite expect the answers to. I found it all rather amusing. But, as I will go into no details whatsoever, there isn't much left to say about that, is there?

As it turns out, buses were cancelled today. My thanks to James, who phoned my house this morning to inform us, who thus bought me another fifteen minutes of sleep. As I just said, I slept in today, and when I woke up a bit later than usual, I immediately realized that buses must be cancelled. But why waste the day away, when I could be doing something? I got up and finished the Bob and George archives. Great webcomic. I showed it to Rick today, and we went through the first few posts. Just to get him hooked. It worked. They're just so funny. If you go there, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, don't try to read from now back to the start. That's just a horrible idea. The storylines are rather long, and can get quite confusing. But it's a great sprite comic. But yeah, back to my day. So I finished reading the webcomic archives, and had pancakes for breakfast. My mom was up, so she figured she'd make pancakes for my brother and I, since we were both home. But my brother didn't want to wake up, so I ate a bunch of pancakes. Deliciousness. Then I wandered down to Rick's, for a day of video games and caffeine. We played a few games, but I mostly stuck to Diablo 2. Good stuff, that. Got my assasin to act two, and up to about...Hmm...Level 17 or 18. Maybe even 19! But I'm not sure. But yeah. Then we went down to the store to pick up some Coke, and on our way back, we ran into James. He bought us both pizza, and then cookies and jelly donuts from Rockwood's famous bakery. I love it when I don't have to pay for stuff. But I'm usually the one with the money. Right, JARED? Honestly, if we added up the total amount that I've spent on him over the years, he would owe me a very very large sum of money. He'd need to take out a loan and a mortage to repay it. And he knows it. :) But I shouldn't write any specific comments to him, since he's very, very far behind in these posts. But he's been ordered to read them all. And read them, he shall! Or suffer my wrath. His choice.

Aaaaaaanyways...Blergh. Test tomorrow...I studied a bit...Mostly factoring...That's what I forget, for the most part, since it's one of the important things, and you can only get so far in a question without factoring it. Yeah...So now that I've studied that a bit, and I'll look over it a bit more tomorrow, as well, but I should be able to pass...God, I hope I can pass. I REALLY need to start doing my homework...I'm gonna try to get at least half my homework done every night, for this new unit. So I can stay on top of things, and know what's going on...And half is better than none, right?

I was thinking the other day, in class...The teacher was talking about something related to math, but caffeine was taking my mind far, far away...I decided to think about this like an RPG. You see, homework is the random encounters that you get into, that you get experience from, get stronger, and gain levels. Quizzes are little minibosses. You know, the guys with quirky personalities, but not much muscle. Always some fairly easy weakness. Tests are like the bosses. Big, hard, and scary. So scary! And the Final Exam...Well, that's like the boss of the game. That's what kills you. And yes, I believe that an exam could kill you. Yep. Anyways, that's my RPG analogy to school.

I figure that since I'm such a video game addict, always worried about being strong in RPG's, maybe that'll help me do homework. Yeah, sounds dumb, but it's worth a shot!

Yep. Oh, apparently today was like...uhh...Geez, what was it...Self Harm Awareness day, or something to that extent. For people that...hurt themselves? That's what I'm guessing. Yeah...That's me. But I don't see it as a problem or anything. I rather enjoy hurting myself. Scraping my fingernails along my skin until it turns red and burns, then continuing to do so...Digging my fingernails into my skin. That's pretty much the only reason I've ever had long fingernails....Because I like to do that to myself. I have scars in generic locations on my body now because of it. But I still don't see it as a problem. I'm a masochist. If I want to hurt myself, then dammit, I'm going to. And guess what? I do.

Gaaaaaaaaaaaah! Deja vu! Yeah...Just had Deja vu about looking over to the large iguana cage to the left of me, seeing the red light, then turning back here, and seeing exactly what I see on the screen now. I even remember thinking the same thoughts, about the Calculus test tomorrow. I get deja vu a lot...At least once a week, sometimes three or for times a week. Less lately...But I used to get it constantly. It's kind of creepy, thinking that something happens, until it does happen, and you realize that you had only dreamed of it before...

Muahahahaha! I just gave Jared the link that I mentioned earlier. What could have been, but never will be. I was going to be nice about it, but then he said something which annoyed me, so I decided to just give it to him and watch him suffer. Dear lord, that sounded so wrong! *shudder* Anyway, I gave him the link. It was so great, that moment before his reaction...The anticipation. Then....'NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' :) Ah...Good times. What'd I tell you, folks? I love to see people suffering. See, now that's what happens when you go and say something that bugs me.

GAH! It happened again! Deja vu again! Yeah...I'm gonna stop this now...I need sleep or something.

Until next time,
FROM THE BUSHES!
~Kataron