Kataron: Hated and lovin' it.

Hey, hey, folks. Look at this! Two updates in one night! I'm fucking SPOILING you! I know my buddy Jared was reading this earlier...My best friend of thirteen years. I've also been kinda half-watching The Amazing Race, which my mom is watching, and I realized that these people all suck. Jared and I would be able to own them! Own them all! Crush them! I mean, really. We make THE BEST team. We know what the other person is going to do before they do it. We're that good. We know each other THAT well. I'm not even joking, it's so true. But yeah, if we were on this show, we'd devise all sorts of amazingly logical ways to get the stuff done, and we'd make it all work so well. You see all these people having all these arguments on the show...But our arguments would be the best! We would be Ying and Yang. I'd be evil, he'd be good. Or at least, that's what it would seem like to the viewers of the show. That's our system, he looks good, I look evil. Secretly, we want the same things, for the most part. He tries to do good, I fuck it up, I take the blame, and we both get to be evil, because of me. See, I really am evil. I don't care if people don't like me. Hell, I thrive on it. It's so much fun to know that people hate you, because you're an ass. I don't know why...But it's true. It's all true. I enjoy being an ass, and being hated. Sometimes, I go out of my way to be an ass and piss people off. Damn. It's fun. But yeah.

Jared and I have been best friends since...Geez, since Kindergarten. hahahahahaha...He found his old report card, and it said I was his 'Special Friend' :p How lame is that, lol? Of course, all them crazy girls find it cute...How the fuck do girls find everything cute? I just don't understand! I say one thing, and I hear an 'awww'...I DON'T GET IT, GOD DAMMIT! Example...There was a girl that needed my desk to write a test in the hall. So I lifted it up and moved it out for her, being the manly he-man that I am. And I swear, I heard somebody say 'awww' as I lifted the desk and moved it out in the hall for her. What the fuck? I don't get it. Yeah, you caught me. I'm not always an ass. Hmmm...Now that I think about it, I'm mostly an ass to my friends. Which brings about the point, why do people put up with me? I'm nothing special. I'm just an annoying, caffeine-addicted freak. Yet I have a bunch of great friends. I'm not complaining, but I don't get it.

Anywho...You know what I love? Masochism! Yay! Self-inflicted pain is good. I likes it. I also like non-self-inflicted pain, as long as I have some control over the level of it...I still have scratch marks from Saturday, when I spent the day with my girlfriend, lol. She has surprisingly sharp nails...I love it. She seems to be at least somewhat sadistic, and enjoys hurting people. That works for me, as I'm masochistic, and like to be hurt. Good system ^_^

I love my blog...I've tried keeping diaries and stuff, but it just never worked for me, you know? I couldn't keep myself to writing in it...I think I got...oh, ONE ENTRY. It got to a paragraph before I got distracted. But this! This is already here, at my computer, where I am most of the time anyway. It gives me something to do when I'm bored. It's fun ^_^ I get to rant and rave and nobody can complain about what I say. And if they do...Oh, if they do, I'll kill them all. In their sleep. With fish. Not sure how, but with fish. I'll figure it out. Yep.

I love this song! w00t! Damn, that reminds me...A guy at school suggested I find every song on the album 'Kid A' by Radiohead, and download it. I'm too lazy, and I don't want to do it now. Too tired and caffeinated to pay attention. But hopefully now that it's mentioned on here, I'll remember...

TWO DAYS. TWO DAYS! TWO DAYS!!!!!! TWO DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Two days until the game I pre-ordered over two months ago will be in...:) And with it...OH, AND WITH IT! I get....

1. A game-based watch. A fancy one, at that.
2. A game-based ring. From what I understand, magic rings are important in the game.
3. A game-based chain. Shiny!
4. Cases for the aforementioned objects.
5. Audio CD with the music of the game(s).
6. A deck of playing cards with game art on them.
7. And technically, it's TWO games.

That's a lot of shit. This game company does this RIGHT! They did some totally kick-ass stuff before. I haven't played it yet, but I already recommend Growlanser Generations. I'll post a full review up here on the weekend, after I've had a chance to play it some more. I'm also gonna see if Veronica's busy this weekend, so we can actually go out on the date that I wanted to happen on Saturday but didn't. If she's not busy, that's more stuff I can talk about on here.

You know what I dislike? Livejournal. It's too damn forum-y for my taste. No offense to forums, mind you. I love forums. But that's like your fucking blog. That should NOT be a forum. A forum is a place where you chat with people. Usually stupid people who don't know grammar...But 'people' nonetheless. But blogs are for your own personal thoughts and opinions, where you let the world know exactly what you ate for breakfast, and why you hate something. I myself don't eat breakfast, dreadful meal, but you get the point.

Seriously. Breakfast sucks. I'm barely awake when I get up. I'm just awake enough to do what's really important. Play on-line games.

www.lordsoflegend.com
www.mechg.com
www.kingsofchaos.com

These are the three on-line games I play the most. In that order. First, I start the morning with LoL. It's good, I'm the second-strongest person in my clan. That's always fun, right? Yeah, it is. Only guy stronger than me is the leader...But we'll see about that, dammit. We'll see. Then I go to mechg, where I have four robots just waiting for me to make them go into battle with other robots. Of course, the other robots all have stupid fucking names like...'Biodude33232532' or 'i crush u now'. No joke...It's pathetic. I named all of mine after the characters from nuklearpower, a great webcomic mentioned in one of my former posts. I have a Fire Mech named Black Mage, due to his tendancy to burn things. Like Dwarves....:) Then I've got a melee mech named Fighter. Because he hits stuff with other stuff. Then I've got a Gun Mech named Thief, because they rely more on speed. And Thief would totally use a gun if they were available to him. Really. Then I've got an Atomic Mech named Red Mage. Red Mage, master of all things, of course controls nuklear energy. Yeah, I spelled it wrong. Purposefully. 'cause the webcomic is nuklearpower.com. Get it? Stop pretending you do and give me a dollar.

Whoa...I'd intended to make this a shorter post, merely a filler because I was bored, but it turned into a full-fledged rant. I love those. 'cause I talk a lot in them. And God knows I love the sound of my own voice, even when it's...text...yes...Shut up. I don't need to justify myself to you, you bastards. I'll kill you all, you hear me?! I'LL KILL YOU ALL, AND THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT! (squirrelly wrath!)

But man. I'ma go check my rp site now. I'd post the URL, but I don't remember it, and finding it would be too much fucking work. Yeah.

Until next time,
Seriously. I'll cut you.
~Kataron

I am not a lush.

How is it that both of my RP characters have become alcoholics? It's weird...They're always talking about ale, and shiny things. Not really sure why. I just kinda RP them like I think they'd do...But yeah.

Sweet Merciful Crap. Reality TV is so fucking stupid. There's this dumb fucking show on, Wife Swap or whatever. My mom's watching it...They've got some dumb bitch from the Bayou(sp?) living with some stupid rich family that's all vegans. And they sent the stupid VEGAN bitch to the Bayou. The Vegan Bitch is pushing her beliefs on all of the meat-eating rednecks...What the fuck is she thinking? They find the absolute stupidest fucking people for these shows! Stupid fucking vegan bitch is crying over some video on animal rights that she's forcing these idiots to watch. I don't understand veganism. I think it's stupid. Especially when they're fucking nazis about it, like this bitch on tv. Yeah, fine, don't eat animals. Don't eat animal products. Doesn't make a fucking difference, but whatever. It's your life, I don't give a fuck what you don't eat. But if anybody tries to push their fucking beliefs on me, I'll beat the fucking shit out of them. I've already had people try to convert me to their religions. I didn't beat the fucking shit out of them because they were friends of mine...But if somebody that wasn't tried to convert me, or push their stupid fucking beliefs that I don't give a damn about on me...? I'd hurt them, very badly. I can figure this shit out for myself. I don't need anybody telling me what or what not I should be eating. I don't give a flying fuck about the animals that I'm eating. I don't like eating weird shit, like deer, and whatever, which my dad seems to enjoy, but other animals are BRED to be eaten. I mean, really, people. Do you REALLY think you're making a difference because you choose not to eat meat? No, you're not. At all. They still kill just as many animals. The meat just goes to waste if you're not going to eat it, making the animals die for no reason whatsoever. It just pisses me off. I have less of a problem with vegetarians. They don't eat meat, fine, whatever, let them believe they're making a difference. (they're not. Sorry, Rachel). But really, folks. What does veganism accomplish?

"We're not going to eat eggs or drink milk, because they treat animals bad."

Yeah....Great....I can understand how vegetarians would be under the belief that they're actually making a difference...But really people, don't be fuckwits. Yeah, that's great, don't drink milk. That makes the cow feel much better while they brand his ass. Soy Milk's all right, though. WHAT THE FUCK IS SOY MILK?! I refuse to dignify anything as milk unless it actually came out of a cow's udder. That's just fucked up. How the fuck do you milk soy? Nope, I refuse. You gonna offer me a glass of soy milk? Eat shit and die. Oh wait...SHIT WOULD BE AN ANIMAL PRODUCT. Yeah, that's right. You heard me. awww....What's the matter? You vegan? You offended? That's too fucking bad. I love my blog. I can say whatever the fuck I want, and I don't need to take anyone else's feelings into account. This is my domain, what I say goes. I'm going to guess Rachel will read this at some point, so please don't be -too- offended, but being somewhat offended is fine. Yep. ANYWHO...

Damn, that's a lot of ranting. Sorry, the whole veganism thing, as well as reality tv, just pisses me off. Dumb, I say. Dumb. Let's see, what's happening in my LIFE that's relevant to anything? uhhh...I'm behind in stuff for my comm. tech class....Nothing new there...Second...I don't really do work in second. But I still get pretty damn good on the tests. I have a big project I need to do, though...Final project, worth 30%...I have about two weeks to finish it up. Well, start it, then finish it. meh. Third...There was supposed to be a test today, but it was moved 'til tomorrow. And fourth...There WAS a test today. Pretty easy, missed one question. The last part pissed me off, though....New paragraph about it :

It was an opinion question about whether I feel that it's a citizen's duty to procreate to keep new children coming in to take the place of the dying or whatever. Also asked if I think the government should offer incentives to have kids. FUCK NO. If you're going to have a kid because you feel that it's your civic fucking duty to keep the country going, then you should be castrated with a rusty fucking spoon! You're clearly not ready for parenthood, so shut the fuck up and buy a fucking goldfish. Watch it die. Watch it die a slow and painful death because you're such a fuckwit. Then reconsider whether or not you think you can really fulfill your civic fucking duty by having a kid. And the government...I swear to God, if we start offering incentives to have kids, I'm going to blow something up. Do you REALLY want these people having kids, just because you fucking paid them to? I mean, you're urging them to give birth, when they're not ready to be parents. You really want a bunch of people that aren't ready to have kids, huh? You want them to fuck up parenthood because they weren't ready for such a big responsibility? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?!?!?! Go to hell. People should have kids when and if they're ready. If you're not emotionally ready, if you're not financially ready, if you're not READY to have kids, then don't, god dammit! Don't! I mean, if the people are ready, and the money just helps them support the kid a bit, then fine, whatever. But if that's why they're having the kid, because they can get money from some stupid government program, they should die. GRRR.

Man...Society fucking sucks. I love my blog! Ranting like this really helps to relieve stress...And boy, I have a lot of stress. But I think I'm done ranting for now....

Until next time,
Push your beliefs on me AT YOUR OWN RISK.
~Kataron

Blooooooooooooooooooog.

Hey hey. Bloggin' it up, yo. That's right, you heard me. I've been playing too much San Andreas...I sometimes talk like them...OH GOD, SOMEBODY STOP ME BEFORE I BECOME ONE OF THEM! Wait...That game I pre-ordered in September was released today, and is shipping tomorrow. That'll give me something else to play so I don't have to get that horrible language stuck in my head ^_^ Good times WILL be had by all. Or else. But yeah. Had a quiz today. It was easy. REAL easy. One page of easiness. Huzzah! But I have two tests tomorrow. Blargh. TWO. One'll be easy...Always is...But the other's physics :( I'ma have to study for that one...I fucking hate studying. And that's why everybody reading this should give me a dollar.

Moving on...oh great. Now I've got admins on the board I used to be an admin on with Eva talking to me about how she cheated on me...Like I needed those shitty memories dredged up again. Whoopdy-fucking-doo. That's just fucking annoying. That entire relationship was a big mistake, I'm thinking now. But I've dedicated enough space on this blog to talk about how she hurt me. That's enough, I'm done. I'm happy now. I have a girlfriend around here, one that I can actually hold in my arms and all that. I've probably ranted about this in old posts, so I'm just going to stop now. Yep.

Anyways...I wonder how many people are reading this...Who has the url...Vero...Rachel...uhhh...
*shrug*
If anybody stumbles across this, leave some comments or something. If you care, which you probably don't. Yep. In that case, I'm going to hunt you down and kill you. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. Drink Coke.

Ramble ramble ramble. My life is so boring. There's nothing to do around this stupid town. So one day, I shall destroy it with fire! Green fire! FIRE! Everybody loves fire. Don't you love fire? Of course you do. PIE FOR ALL.

I love caffeine. And I'm psyched about my game. So psyched. It's been two and a half months since I pre-ordered it. It's about fucking time it came out. ABOUT FUCKING TIME! I'm going to put so many hours into this game...And I get some shiny stuff with it. HOW GOOD IS THAT?! Anyways, I think I'm done ranting for tonight...More tomorrow, I promise. But don't quote me on that, or I'll break your legs. :)

Until next time,
Pidgie....Pidgie...Pidgie...Potatoe?
~Kataron

Should be died. DIED!

Scooby Dooby Doo, where ARE you? Fucking dog. Anywho, blogger FINALLY seems to want to work...It wasn't working at all whilst I was trying to update earlier :( It made me angry! ANGRY! And hungry. HUNGRY! Forgive any...seemingly weird remarks, I'm full up to my ears with caffeine. Caffeine good. But yeah. Nothing much has happened to me today...I got up around...umm...10:30, maybe a bit after. Fucking brother woke me up, telling me it was 11. But then pancakes. Pancakes made getting up worth it. I fucking love pancakes. PANCAKES! Say it with me! Pancakes! PANCAKES, DAMMIT! FUCK YEAH! But yeah. Then...uhh...I sat around for a while...watched some tv...I was playing Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas for a bit. Fun stuff. I completed a bunch of missions, including one where I had to burn a whole ton of marijuana plants 'cause the cops were coming. Then I got to drive a hippy van away after shooting down a police helicopter with a Rocket Launcher. Needless to say, much fun was had by all. BY ALL! Then...I...pizza. Yep. Pizza for dinner, watched that movie 'Galaxy Quest' on the SuperStation. Fun stuff. And yeah...It's been a fairly entertaining day, except for the fact that I've had extremely limited contact with my girlfriend. And by extremely limited, I mean I talked to her for a minute between her returning from a church potluck and going off to watch 'Elf' with her family. But oh well, I'll get to see her tomorrow, and I got to hang out all day with her yesterday ^_^ Fun stuff. But yeah, just figured I'd do a little update here. Since I have nothing better to do. Well, I actually think I'm gonna watch some amusing on-line flash thingies now...

http://www.illwillpress.com/vault.html

Funny stuff. Go Foamy! If you go to the site, watch 'Nuts to you'. Hi-fucking-larious. But yeah. I'll see how long THAT can hold my attention for. Quite frankly, I'm amazed I've written this much. I mean, I have NO attention span right now. YE GODS! A ringing a'rings in my ear! Clearly something big and scary is coming to get me. Battlestations, men! Oh wait...It's just me...Oh well, I'll let it eat me. I've had a good run. Then I shall give it indigestion the likes of which it could never even BEGIN to imagine! Muahahahahahahahaha! Anywho, yeah. Not really sure if I have anything else to say. I've been updating so often, there isn't anything else in my life to talk about, that I can think about right now...Whoa. I forgot what I just wrote. Oh yeah. And I saw her faaaaaaaaaaaaace, now I'm a believer! Sorry, Shrek was just on. Good old Shrek. Wombaticon!

Websites you clearly need to read:

www.penny-arcade.com
www.pvponline.com
www.pvncomics.com
www.squidi.net
www.ctrlaltdel-online.com
www.vgcats.com
www.side-quest.com
www.nuklearpower.com
And probably some other ones.

And that's why you should all give me a dollar. Anywho, Foamy time.

Until next time,
Sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex SEX,
~Kataron

THE BRITISH ARE COMING! ewwwwwwww......

Yo ho ho, sports fans. 'tis I! Kataron! Yep. So yeah. Fun day today. I had been hoping to actually be able to take Veronica out somewhere on an actual date, but we just didn't have time. I'ma try to schedule something for next weekend. But today was pretty freakin' fun. Okay, I had to get up really fucking early. HATED that. But it was worth it. I had to get up at like...seven. 'cause I thought I was being picked up like...20 minutes earlier than I really was, lol. But I got picked up, and we drove back to Vero's house, where we got into a van with the rest of her family, and off we went. There was some slight fighting, but it was all good by the end of the car ride to Hamilton. 'sides, I'd be incredibly irritable too, if I had to get up that early. Well, I did have to get up that early, but I found some coke lying around. That woke me up. Wasn't much left...Just the end of a flat bottle, but it was still enough to give me a little kick. Anyways, the rides to and from Hamilton were my favourite parts of the earlier day. Vero and I were in the very back seat, and she decided to lie down and use me as a pillow, which was fine by me. THEN her dad put in a book on tape. Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy! Holy shit! It's awesome! I need to read it. By the end of the day, I'd heard up to chapter six, and now I need to finish it. Awesome. Anyways, the laughter from the reading really helped cheer the irritable people up, and all was well ^_^ Then we got there, and there were so many kids...And we wore funny hats with spring dealies on them. They were damn cool. But mine was impotent :'(

So anyways, the whole thing in Hamilton was just a huge sale for kids who wanted to buy Christmas gifts for people. There were all these tables set up, 'Dads and Grandpas', 'Moms and Grandma's', ect. It was pretty easy helping the kids find what they needed. I ended up helping five kids, and getting six volunteer hours. But most importantly, I got to hang out with Veronica more, even though we were busy for a lot of it helping the kids. Then on the way back from Hamilton, more being a pillow and Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy! Yay! We didn't get to hang around for long, though...At that point, it was mid-afternoon, as we had hung out for a while at the Church in Hamilton while Vero's parents were elsewhere. It was fun though, there were some cool other kids there around our age. But yeah, after we got back to Vero's, we had time to hang around for a bit, maybe...half an hour? Probably a bit less, but then we had to go to the other church dealy. Veronica was supposed to help out or something, but she didn't. Mostly she and I just hung out and talked about stuff. She also had fun hurting me. I have a whole bunch of scratches up and down my arms...And sharpie over them. Permanent marker HURTS LIKE A BITCH over scratches that actually break the skin. But hey, I'm masochistic. I was encouraging it the whole time. I tried getting my nails into my arms....But I just couldn't do it as well as her, which is odd, because I have longer nails. But it was very fun...Being hurt...Yeah. It's true, dammit!

And the service was good. Vero and I sat together, and Emma joined us. I don't see her much, so that was cool. The music was good. Chris kept messing up the projecting of the lyrics, but it was still good. Except the one about how they could sing their love for Jesus forever....THEY DID. I mean, holy shit. Doesn't it get old, saying that same line four times in a row for like...four or five times during the song? Damn. Just pissed me off. I sang it out three times, then I sang something about how it was getting old. I don't think anybody heard me. And there were sexual connotations to the first two songs. The first involved the word 'coming' a lot, which was just hilarious after a joke Vero told me today about the phrase 'The British are coming!'. Yeah...And the second was talking about getting down on knees, and being hungry. That is CLEARLY sexual. Should be a sin or something to sing about that. But yeah. Then on the way back to her place after that, more Hitchhikers! Very fun :) Vero didn't lie down on that ride, but we still held hands, and by the end, I had managed to place my head on her shoulder, even though there was an empty seat between us :p

Then we hung out at her place for a bit...At this point, it was dark, and I had to call my mom and tell her that I was getting a ride home with Vero's dad, but yeah. We watched some hilarious on-line videos....SO funny. Then we had dinner, which was cheesy pasta, which was good. Then we sort of hung around and talked for a bit after dinner....It was pretty good. I got along very well with her parents, which was good ^_^ But yeah, that's pretty much my day. But there was one thing that's just kind of bugging me now, lol. Over the entire day of hanging out with her, I never actually got a chance to kiss her...I'll have to make up for that on Monday, when we see each other again. Yep! But that is my regret of the day, not getting a chance to kiss her. There was some snuggling though, and generic stroking of hair and such, which is always fun ^_^ But mark my words! uhhh...Pie is good. Yeah. Forgot what I was going to say...Anywho, that was my day! It was good ^_^ I'll update again tomorrow, with whatever randomness I can conjure from a day of doing nothing!

Until next time,
THE PAIN, OH THE WONDERFUL WONDERFUL PAIN!
~Kataron

Why is it that revelations only come to me when I'm depressed?

Revelations. They only ever come around then I'm depressed. Which has been rather often in the past few months or so, with all the shit that's happened in my life. It was just seeming to get better, and then tonight happened. I no longer fit in at my youth group. The youth group, that I've been going to for years, is now just too damn religious. It's a church-run youth group, sure. But it's never really been this religious. There's two new guys...One is my buddy Eric's friend, and another is the new intern there, who will eventually take over the head guy's place. Oh joy...This is a guy who's idea of a prank against another cabin at camp is breaking in and cleaning their mess, after they've stolen the last four Cokes of a caffeine-addicted madman with no access to other forms of caffeine. They STOLE from us at a religious fucking camp, and he wanted to clean their fucking cabin. What the fuck?! Grrr...So yeah. It's just lost it's fun...We used to play games. We'd play Grenade, and throw the ball at each other, such good times. But then they redid the entire building, added in wooden sidings, new floor, new everything...So the only games we ever really play in there are card games. Some of the younger kids still play Grenade and stuff in there, but not many, and yeah...Now they just sit around and play cards, talking about shit. And by the end of the night, when the two new really religious guys were playing, and talking, it was all about religion. Pope this, Jesus that, disciple, whatever. I didn't understand or care about any of it. All their stupid religious jokes that only THEY found funny, all of the religiously brainwashed bullshit...YARGH! And the youth group has even converted two of my friends...Eric wasn't always a Christian, but now he's an uber-fucking-christian, and everything I ever do is a sin. Yeah, that's just great. And even Rick, who doesn't seem religious at all is buying into it...*sigh* I'm pretty much the only person there who isn't a Christian...Well, except the dumb kids who just play outside. So I'm not sure if I should keep going...This is kind of a miniature theological crisis. I don't want to be converted and brainwashed. And going there has just lost it's fun...*sigh*

And yeah...Also, ex-gf stuff. She's missing me, asking me questions like...'If I moved there, could we date again?' and stuff like that...*sigh* I just don't understand her. She claimed she loved me, still does, I think, says that if I gave her another chance, she would never hurt me again, but she cheated on me. She lost her virginity to a friend who she assured me she was 'like siblings' with. It's bullshit, is what it is. She just needs to move on, find somebody else. She said she doesn't want other guys, but she just has to realize that she can't have me! She lost her chance to be with me when she lost her virginity to some asswipe. I even gave her another chance, and she just dumped me the next day. And now, she misses me, she wants me back, she wouldn't hurt me again. How could I trust a word she said? She told me she wanted to start up the RP board she used to run again, and wanted me to be an administrator like I used to be on it. I told her I couldn't, as she clearly was not over me, and it would just hurt her to work that closely with me again, when she can't have me. I'm with somebody else now, dammit. I'm putting this on here because...well, I don't know, because I figure Veronica should know, and it's not a subject I really want to just out-and-out talk about. *sigh* The worst thing is, part of me expects Veronica to cheat on me, because both of my former girlfriends (though both on-line) have...As you're probably reading this, Veronica, I'm not trying to say anything bad about you. I don't think you would cheat on me, I don't think you're that type of person, you're a much better person than that, but personal experience has made it just that much harder for me to trust anybody at all...*sigh*

I rather enjoy having a girlfriend around here...Somebody I can hold, kiss, talk to face to face...I mean, I've been through two on-line relationships now, each lasting about six months, and my first date ever is going to be tomorrow. I hadn't even realized the simple pleasure of holding hands with somebody until a few days ago...To be honest, I'd had feelings for her for a little while, but it took what happened at Rachel's party to give me the guts to actually ask her out...She's the first girl I've asked out in real life who's actually said yes. It amazes me even now. I spent pretty much the entire time between the end of Rachel's party, and the time I got home (there was another party in between) trying to figure out how to ask her out, what she would be most likely to say...I went through dozens and dozens of possibilities for conversations in my head, trying to be ready for anything, but the one thing I still hadn't been ready for was a yes. It's pretty sad, I already can't stop thinking about her. I think I just have an obsessive personality like that...It's one of the things that makes me a hopeless romantic. And boy, am I ever a hopeless romantic...Yep, I'm the obsessive kind. But also, I usually get easily jealous and possessive...Which is kind of a downside, but I'm trying to keep that from happening with Vero. Yep...It's not always easy, just because I'm paranoid and part of me always thinks that she's going to cheat on me or something, and wants to eliminate any chances for that to happen...But that part of me is basing my relationship with Vero on my two former relationships...So yeah...Completely different. Doesn't make any sense for me to do it, but I've been doing good with not getting jealous or overly possessive ^_^ Although some girls find it cute when you get possessive, or jealous (to an extent, mind you), so that could always work in my favour, lol. But yeah.

I had a pretty good day today, until the youth group. I was supposed to have a quiz in first period, but my teacher just kept showing us these cool pictures he took in Australia last summer. That's one cool place. Beautiful landscapes, animals...And the beaches! DAMN! The sand is white! It's awesome. But yeah, got out of quiz for that. And second, there was a 'motivational speaker'. A hypnotist came in and hypnotized people, myself included. I got to make an ass out of myself in front of all the grade 11's and 12's at my school. It was fucking awesome. But I was never completely brainwashed...Only partially, I still retained memory from it all, and some thought capabilities. I just didn't seem to be in complete control of my body, which was pretty cool. Then in third...Well, we just did an easy experiment. Piece of cake. And fourth, just a couple notes and boring stuff like that. Yep. Then I got home, came on-line, did what I needed to do, and bathed. I need to have personal hygeine now...That's one downside to dating. I don't like hygeine. I think it's a waste of time. I was only bathing like...Once every week and a half, not brushing my teeth anywhere near as often as I should have been, and just generally neglecting my hygeine. But now that I have a girlfriend around here...I need to do stuff like that. It's a pretty big step for me, but I think it's worth it. Yep. Anywho, I think I might watch a bit of tv, then sleep. I can't stay up until 3am like I usually do on Fridays, 'cause I gotta get up at like...7 tomorrow. 'cause I gotta go to Hamilton with Veronica to volunteer at some church dealy. Yep...And that's earlier than I normally get up on school days, so bleh. But I do so dread the ride there...Apparently, her dad is going to come pick me up. Just him. And drive me back to their house. He and I. Alone in a car. A father and the father's daughter's boyfriend. A boyfriend and his girlfriend's father. It's gonna be awkward...Very awkward. And her damn parents still think I drank all the Coke at some party she had. LIES, LIES I SAY! But yeah. I'm looking forward to tomorrow...I was feeling pretty down tonight, but talking to Vero for a bit helped...And then writing this. Yep...Good stuff. Anyways, I'll update tomorrow night and talk about how the day went. Wish me luck. OR ELSE.

Until next time,
Won't help at all to worry 'bout it,
~Kataron

Dag, yo. That means something, I just don't know what.

Countdown: Four! FOUR days until the game comes out! And it's about fucking time! I only pre-ordered it TWO MONTHS AGO. It was supposed to come out September 6th, three days before my birthday, but noooooo...But alas, I've gone over this before. Yep. Anywho, FOUR.

I had a test today. Was easy. EASY, I SAY! And I have a quiz tomorrow. And a test Monday. And a test Tuesday. HOW IS THAT FAIR?!?!?! But yeah. My ex-gf was on-line today...I told her that I had asked a girl out, and she said something about how quickly guys get over her, and signed off...:S Awkward, I tells ya. She seemed to be under the impression that we would be getting back together at some point, after she cheated on me, lost her virginity to some guy, I gave her another chance, and she dumped me...I just don't see how a relationship can go back after that, I really don't. *sigh* But I didn't want to hurt her, so yeah...She'll be better off without me, in the end. Long distance relationships are too much for her. And now that I remember what it's like to be with a girl irl, they're too much for me, too...But yeah. Moving on...

I think it's time we blow this thing...Get everybody and this stuff together...
Okay,
3,
2,
1,
Let's jam.

Sorry...Listening to a new CD I got from my buddy Mitch. Cowboy Bebop, the entire soundtrack. MMMMMM. Good shit. Oh! And Mitch, he was at school today ^_^ Still sick, but he was there. Won't be tomorrow, though...Too sick :( But today, he was :) Yep. Let's see...What else is happening in my life...I think I might have mentioned this in a post before, but I have my first date ever on Saturday. I'm excited. And I'm still in shock that she actually wants to go out with me. Whenever she's not around, part of my mind doubts these past few days, thinking maybe it was all just a good dream...But that's just 'cause I have low self-esteem. Well, that's not entirely accurate....NO self-esteem would fit better. Yeah...Maybe she can shed some light on why she'd want to go out with me, as I think she's pretty much the only person that's going to bother to read this...lol. Yep. I just don't get it! At all! It scares and confuses me. She's clearly insane. Not that I mind, but still. That's pretty much the only way I can see somebody wanting to go out with me...Yep.

My life is soooooo boring...oh! I had a cool conversation with a really awesome teacher today. He was my math teacher in grade 9, and in grade 11. Anyways, we were in the cafeteria today, I was getting a cookie, and he was ahead of me in line. I said good morning, and he said hi. I paid for my cookie, and started off, but he's stopped near the pop machines, looking at the students. He stopped me, and pointed to two groups of students. Well, one was a single person, but the other was a group. He mentioned how girls always seemed to be doing better in school, and better in reading and such. He pointed out the single person in front of us, who happened to be a girl studying her notes, and then to the table next to her, where a large group of guys (and two girls, but Mr. Yanchus said they were there 'for attention', which seemed fairly accurate) were playing cards. It was intesting, and correct. Guys don't work, guys don't study, girls ARE the smarter ones. I'd be ashamed of being male if I didn't love my penis. I mean...err...Yeah.

Anywho, I thnk that's about all for now.

Until next time,
This is the best pie in the history of pie...
~Kataron

Video games and Nate. A true story. Well, true ENOUGH.

Well, the comment I had on that one post made me want to rant on about my personal history with video games. Ah yes, I remember it all like it was yesterday...Yep. My FIRST video game experience was on an old friend of mine's Nintendo. Yep, classic Nintendo. THAT is the shit. He had Duck Hunt/Super Mario Bros., and even BattleToads. I won't tell you about the endless hours he and I spent playing BattleToads, and shootings those goddamn ducks on Duck Hunt :) Good times. So, of course, I needed this as my own. It was around Christmas, and that was the gift I asked for. A Nintendo. But did I get it? Kinda. I got a Super Nintendo. Of course, being very little, I was like..."What the crap is this?!", but of course, I didn't use the word 'crap'. I neglected the whole SUPER part, until I started playing. AND HOLY FUCK. I was hooked. Forever. Super Mario World. First game I ever owned, and I still have it. From that, I moved onto stuff like Donkey Kong. And Zelda. Damn, man. I remember THE DAY I got Legend of Zelda: Link to the Past. It was a Birthday present, and I got to open it in the morning before school. Of course, I didn't have time to play it before school, but I had the guide book memorized by the end of the day. Yep...Then I found my true passion. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, RPG's. In the form of 'Super Mario RPG'. At the time, I had no idea what an RPG was. I learned quickly. Gaining levels, it was so new to me...So beautiful. Then I got into the harder stuff, like Final Fantasy. I distinctly remember renting Final Fantasy 3/6 from a video place around here, but that was never good, because the files weren't there the next time you rented it. But I dealt. I wasn't old enough to truly appreciate the brilliance of it all, but as I grew, I understood. I got a computer, got the internet, started getting into ROMs. Suddenly, there was much less need for my SNES. I could have any game I wanted, ON MY COMPUTER. It was great. Harvest Moon was and still remains to be a personal favourite. I drooled over an article about it in Nintendo Power. Literally. If I found that article again, I'm pretty sure there'd still be a mark from the drool. It just amazed me, to be blunt. I mean, how the hell can they make a game about farming look that good?! And good it was...Oh, how good it was...Of course, that was near the fall of the SNES. I soon found out they had stopped making games for it, and purchased a Nintendo 64. With it, I got a Star Wars game. I forget which. And Super Mario 64. They BLEW MY MIND. I mean, damn! Going from Super Nintendo graphics to fully 3D craziness! Amazing. Got a bunch of games for that...Diddy Kong Racing, Donkey Kong 64, Banjo Kazooie, Zelda: Ocarina of time (time seems to be a BIG theme for them...SNES game: Link to the Past, first 64 game: Ocarina of time, Second 64 game plays three days over and over again with you going back in time before the end or being crushed by a giant moon...), Zelda: Majora's Mask, and so many others...Life was good. Video games were good. And then we got a Playstation! With Final Fantasy 7. I had already seen the game played many times at a friend's house, but to play it myself was awesome. Many games were purchased for that, many good RPG's...FF7, Chrono Cross, Star Ocean 2...:) Life was good....

AND THEN! And then, there was the PS2. Well, to be honest, I think my brother and I got Gameboy Advances first, but we lost interest in them quickly, with only limited games to play. But the PS2...Awesome. It's what we use now. First games we got were Vice City, FFX, and a couple others. I've got that new game coming in...in about 5 days. Yep. I'm PSYCHED. It's gonna rule. But yeah. That's the console history. I also have a PC, which I still have now. Never once been upgraded...Top of the line...You know, SIX years ago. Yep...I want to get it upgraded, but meh. The Pentium 3 came out right after we bought ours...So we've got a P2. It sucks!!! But it still works, so meh. I've concentrated mainly on strategy games for the computer. Command and Conquer, Age of Empires 2, Age of Empires 2: The Conquerors Expansion, Disciples 1&2, Warcraft 2, Starcraft & Starcraft Expansion. Stuff like that. All good stuff. Well, I played those and FPS games. First Person Shooters, for you non-nerds. Yep. Like Duke Nukem 3D, complete with explodable strippers. And Redneck Rampage. THAT was a fucked up game. Very fucked up. But I didn't get into the FPS games as much as I did the RTS ones...THAT is Real Time Strategy, btw. Yep. Good times were had by all...But my computer hasn't been good for years, which is why I got heavily into text-based games a while back. One in particular, called Mordor. Man, those were some fun times...Of course, I sucked. But what can you expect, I was a mage that was anti-social and refused to group with people. Mages CANNOT survive without grouping. It's impossible. Maybe in the beginning, but later on...DEATH! They have low hp, low strength...bah. Some crazy-ass spells, though. DAMN. But the best ones didn't come until much later levels. But yeah. This has pretty much been my video game history. And it's just the beginning. I'm going to move out with my bestest bud Jared, get a PS2 (the one I have now is partially my brother's, so I can't take it :( ), and an Xbox. And oh, the gaming that will be had! I'm going to school his sorry ass so many times in Halo and Halo 2, he won't be able to sit for a week! A WEEK! Yep. Good times WILL be had by all.

Now, onto non-video game matters...Let's see...erg. Tests galore coming up...I've got a math test tomorrow...An 'ologies test on Monday...and a physics test on Tuesday :S Yargh...And am I gonna study? Hell no. I don't study. Well, I'll study like...the day of. And maybe a bit more before the physics one, 'cause that's my lowest mark, but yeah. I can get past without studying, and still get a not-bad mark, for the most part. I always freak out, but I can remember the stuff, and I do fine. Yep. And let's see...Other than that...Ah, my buddy Mitch is sick. :( I had nobody to talk to today in physics! I was so lonely...It's a grade 11 physics class, so I don't really know anybody except Mitch, some kid named Jon, and a girl named Christine, who sits beside me, but I don't talk to because she annoys me and I don't think she likes me. Yep...So I hope he gets better. He's awesome. Especially on Fridays. God, I love Fridays. That's when Mitch doesn't take his Medication. He has ADD, so he's medicatedly mellow most of the week, but doesn't take it on Fridays 'cause it fucks up his weekend. But he is SO amusing on Fridays :) Yep. Good times. And let's see...What else....uhhh...Oh, apparently I'm an object. My new girlfriend and my best friend have to share me...I mean...Today was Jared's turn to have me at lunch, so we could have best-friend time. But really, I was being treated like an object. It was kinda fun, actually. It was like...More than one person wanted me. Cool stuff. But yeah. It's kinda hard having to pick between your girlfriend and your best friend at times...I mean, they're both part of church things, and they're both having big get-togethers every month at their different churches, AT THE SAME TIME. So I have to pick which one to go to :S I think I'm gonna go to hers this time...I'm pretty sure I'm gonna spend most of the morning helping her at some Church in Hamilton, selling stuff to kids for volunteer hours...Then I'm gonna hang out with her until her dealy at the place. Yep. Whoa. This is long...I'd better post it now. Yep.

UNTIL NEXT TIME,
OBEY GRAVITY! IT'S THE LAW!
~Kataron

howdy.

Hey. Yeah, I was gonna update last night, but I had a big fight with my dad...Ended up in a screaming match, with me kicked off the computer. But that's okay, there's things happening in my life right now that totally make up for it. I now have a girlfriend. Like, one that lives around me. So far, I've only had two on-line relationships. That's it, that's been my entire experiences with relationships. Just happened, and I'm excited about it. But as with everything good in life, it's a double-edged sword. Okay, so she's a friend of mine, we've been friends for a while. But ANOTHER friend of mine doesn't want us so much as holding hands at 'the locker', where we gather in the morning, or at lunch (well, it was implied). She and I live in different cities, 'bout 20 minutes away, but we go to the same high school. So we can't really hang out more since neither of us can drive. I need my driver's license, I've been able to get it for a year and a half now...But yeah. Lazy. So, our one friend is pretty much making us (my new gf mostly) pick between being friends with them, or each other. It doesn't bother me as much. I don't really hang out with the group much anymore, but she does...So basically, she's making my new girlfriend pick between her old friends, or me, JUST because she has problems with people even touching each other. She said that we can't do stuff at the locker because it excludes people, and stuff like that. It just pisses me off...But yeah...I'm gonna end this now, and play some games. Good old games.

Until next time,
Fight the power! And by 'the power', I mean Microsoft.

w00t

Howdy, loyal and non-existant listeners! I've just had the best weekend I've had in a long, long time! w00t, I say! w00t! That's with 0's, not o's. Zeros. Zeroes. Bah. But yeah. TWO BACK TO BACK PARTIES! Totally awesome. The first one was better though, for reasons I can't go into. ;) But they were both pretty damn sweet. There was a live band at the first one, and they rocked! Everybody was dancing, it was great ^_^ And at the second...Oh, don't get me started about the second...TOO LATE! The second, at one point, had five xboxes. YES, THAT'S RIGHT, FIVE. Each with it's own copy of Halo, and controllers! We networked them all....OMFG! AMAZING! After people got bored and started wandering off, and one guy left with his albine xbox (it was white ^_^), there were four of us playing, on four different xboxes, with four different tv's. Multiplayer Halo 2 with full screen action, baby. It's like on-line, but you can yell obscenities(sp?) across the room! And yell we did. Oh how we yelled. :) It was awesome. And then in the OTHER room...About eight computers networked for multiplayer action. DAMN! There was Counter-Strike, Day of Defeat, some other game, and even Rome: Total War for a bit! 'course, I feel asleep around one or two...When I started going on about how Andy was trying to rape Blake's computer by installing Windows Service Pack 2, Blake told me I should go sleep. I think I was slurring words, too...Oh, and I DIDN'T get high this time from other-room drug use. That sucked at the last one. 'cause drugs are bad. Yep. But it was great, there was all sorts of Halo 2, on-line gaming goodness, and some movies and anime near the end :) I could have been awake longer, but I got only two or so hours of sleep the night before...But it was totally worth it.

I actually calculated how long I was gone in reference to how long I'm usually gone. I left for school on Friday morning, 'bout 8, then came back Sunday afternoon around 2. I was gone for about 8 times longer than I'm normally gone for ^_^ heheheh...This is one rambly blog entry. I'm just really happy right now...Odd, but true. Oh, and the caffeine. And the candy. I HAVE A BIG FUCKING BAG OF CANDY! There must be...two, three, maybe even four hundred suckers in there! Plus rockets, gum-filled suckers, candy-sticks, and other assorted goodies. Hell yeah, baby. Hell yeah. Most of my sugar-sticks were used at the party though :'( I wanted them for the LAN, but nooooooo...They had to put them in a cup. A CUP! And I told them to stop, but they didn't. So I'm going to get my revenge on all of them...Oh, how I'm going to get my revenge....MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Good times. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! Yep. I'm so fucking wired right now. NOOOO!!!! Mr. C's gone :( Mr...Calcagno or something, no idea how to spell it, was subbing for my normal communications technology teacher after he got an operation. Three weeks. And he was soooooo cool! I'm gonna miss him...He made coffee on the last day and let me eat ground coffee beans ^_^ And good times were had by all! Mr. Vidug's back now. He's more strict, but also cool if you give him a chance :) Yep. But yeah. What else...Oh, yeah! My final project date dealy got moved back from this Friday to next Monday ^_^ That's good, 'cause I haven't started! I'm trying to do a comparison of Dungeons and Dragons classes, but DAMN it's hard to get info on those without those $50 a pop books. *shakes fist* Clearly it's a conspiracy against me. But then again, what isn't? Go with the flow, baby.

I fucking love my playlist. 577 songs. 369 of them are songs from Final Fantasy. The rest are anime, rock, techno, and anything else I've thrown in. Right now I'm listening to a funny drinking song. :) *does a little jig* I fucking love video game music. It's amazing! You can find a video game song to suit ANY mood, I guarantee it. W00t! The game I pre-ordered ages ago that I thought was coming in before is coming out in about a week! I thought it was coming out on the 16th or something, but it wasn't :( But in a week! Two games! Watch! Chain! Soundtrack! Playing cards! :D:D:D:D:D THAT is how you package a fucking game right there! w00t, baby! w00t! ^_^ Man...I've rambled on long enough...Stay tuned for my next post! It's gonna be great! ^_^

Blargh.

Bah. My dad is a complete fucking asshole. He firmly believes that he reigns supreme over everything in the house because he pays the bills. Yeah, that's fucking great. So because he pays the bills (and it's mostly my mom doing that anyway), I have to obey him as if his word was that of God. Fuck that. Okay, I'ma tell you why in particular I'm ranting about this right now. I JUST got two DVD's of anime, an entire series, a mini-series that follows it, and two episodes each from three or four different shows. The only computer in the house with a DVD drive is my mom's laptop for work, so I was going to use that to watch it on. I grabbed it, and I was going to set it up and start watching, and my dad asks me if I asked my mom for permission before using it. She was on the phone, and she never gave a damn before whether or not I used it, so I didn't ask permission. But I humoured him, I waited until my mom got off the phone and asked her before I set it up, and when I do, he mentions it, just to be an asshole, and I tell him it's none of his business, and he tells me to pack it up and put it back. I refuse, until my mom tells me to, because it's her computer, not his. He doesn't even know how to turn the thing ON, let alone DO anything on it. But he still believes that because he 'pays the bills', the laptop falls into his dominion. WHAT THE FUCK?! He keeps bitching at me about giving him attitude, but anything I'm doing is NOTHING compared to what he's giving me. Just because he's in a bad mood, which he's been in since before I walked through the door, I have to suffer. Yeah, that's real fucking fair. He's always in a bad mood lately. Well, either that or he's drunk. That seems to be the only time he's ever happy. When he's in a bad mood, everybody else in the family has to suffer, because he always acts like a complete asshole, bitching about every little thing, and the rest of the time, he's drunk. Either way, it sucks. I can't wait until I can finally afford to move out of here...No more being bitched at by parents, no more of their fucking rules...grrr...Okay, after breaking up with my girlfriend, I was pretty depressed until I started to get over her and cheer up, and my parents are always worrying about me being depressed and whatnot, but whenever I am, IT'S THEIR FUCKING FAULT! They don't understand me, they never will. But that doesn't matter. Soon enough, I'll be getting out of here, and I'll rarely have to see them again....Now THAT will be good. But yeah. That's enough 'my-dad's-an-asshole' ranting for now.

Moving on...Weekend! Yay! I've got two, count 'em, TWO parties this weekend! The first one is my friend Rachel's birthday party. That should be entertaining, lots of people and whatnot. And a few of my VERY good friends, so I should be able to keep myself entertained. Yep. And then after that, I'm going straight from there to my other friend's house, who's having another party. It's a combination-type party....It's a LAN party. It's a Halo 2 party. It's a Jam Session (for those guests that play musical instruments). And it's a generic party, for people that don't fit into any of those other categories. Yeah, that should be good. I'm going to get so loaded on caffeine that I'm going to be sick, and I'm going to love every minute of it. Those are my plans for the weekend. Homework? Productive things? Fuck that, coke, movies, and video games. That's where it's at. Yep. Gonna be a good weekend. ooo! Also, I'm gonna get a new CD from my buddy Mitch. He's gonna burn me an MP3 CD with all of the music from Cowboy Bebop onto one CD! That's good, as I seem to have misplaced three out of five of my Cowboy Bebop CD's...Can't find OST 1, Future Blues, OR...the other one...that I don't remember the name of. The only two I can find are Nodisc and Blue. But yeah. Good, but repetitive if they're the only ones you have to listen to...So I'm getting them all on one, so I don't have to switch CD's ^_^ It shall be grand. I only wish I could watch the anime I just got from Mitch...The ENTIRE series, and then some, and my dad's too much of an ass to let me watch it...grrrrr....But yeah...Enough ranting for now...


UNTIL NEXT TIME,

MY DAD IS AN ASSHOLE!!!

~Kataron

Updatifying.

Yeah. Haven't updated in a while. Figured I would. WELL...As it turns out, Eva cheated on me, I gave her another chance, and she dumped me. In that order. Yep. But I'm over it. I can move on. But yeah. That's kinda why I haven't updated here in a while. I just got over it a few days ago, really. Something happened, but I'm not willing to go into any details here whatsoever. Sorry folks. Let's just say it involved a girl. Yep.

MOVING ON...I'm back to the life of a bachelor. Oh joy. But I guess I'll get this all worked out, huh? Meanwhile, I can do whatever I want without fear of people getting upset. Because quite frankly, anybody that has a problem with what I do can go fuck themselves :) I used to care more, but meh. So I'm going to keep doing what I do. I'm going to keep wearing my sandals and t-shirts until I'm forced out of them, and I welcome any weird looks people give me. I'm going to be an ass and sack my friends randomly, and anybody that has a problem with it can get a sack too. I'm going to COMPLETELY ignore personal hygiene, because it's nothing more than a waste of time. I'm going to bathe maybe every week and a half, simply because it takes time to bathe. Time I could be spending playing video games. And I fucking love video games. Don't get me STARTED on video games.

Too late...

My friend just got Halo 2 for his Xbox. COMPLETELY FUCKING AMAZING! I schooled his bitch-ass in a vehicle match, but he owned me in a close combat match. That fucker with his shotgun....And then, first person shooters aside, there's World of Warcraft! HOLY SHIT! That game is awesome! Like, abso-fucking amazing. I can't wait 'til it comes out fully on the 23rd. Man...The beta rules. They've got a Stress Test going on now, so they're getting a bunch of people in to test it and such. It's gonna kick so much ass when it comes out for good :) I have four characters on the beta...All weak, but I'm just testing classes and races. Yep. Oh! And Growlanser Generations! IT'S ABOUT TIME THIS GAME CAME OUT! It's been delayed for like...two months. It was SUPPOSED to come out like...September 6th. So I pre-orded it for myself as a birthday present. For myself. Yep. It would be perfect! It comes out on the 6th, my birthday was on the 9th. But noooooooo....It got delayed....Now it's coming out about a week from NOW, over two months later. Bastards. But I can't wait....It should be good. The company does good stuff. And they know how to market games. I mean, I'm getting two games with it. A fancy watch, game-based of course, a deck of playing cards (with game art), a shiny chain, and the entire sound track. Yeah. Anywhos, that's enough ranting for now...

Until next time,
I'M THE FREAKIN' POPE OF MY RELIGION!!!