Happy Halloween and all that shit.

Hey hey. I'm bored, and I've got fifteen minutes or so before bed, so I figured I'd update the old blog. Yep. Let's see...Nothing much has happened since I last posted....Still haven't spoken to Eva...Haven't done anything not related to video games...Hell, I didn't even set foot outside today. Now THAT is the life, ladies and gentlemen. Not going outside, and playing video games all day. Yes sir. Got that new GTA: San Andreas game. It amuses me. Everybody's black, so a lot of the music is shitty rap, but other than the rap, it's cool. You get SOME character customization, which is completely new to the GTA series. Hell, you can even mod your cars and such. It's pretty damn cool. Oh, and there's gang wars! Fun stuff. But I keep dying. And failing missions. I'm 90% certain that I have ADD, so it's hard to concentrate on my missions. I usually get distracted and crash my car a lot, and then I'm too lazy to try the mission again, because that's just too damn much work. So clearly, I need guns and drugs. In that order. What else can I talk about...Let's see...I can't really think of much. I have a pretty boring life. Well, boring for the most part. Things with Eva always make things...interesting. Whether it's good or bad varies, but it's definately not boring. But yeah. I'm just an average nerd that plays video games all day. And I'm very, very unpopular. I admire people who can just...not care what people think. God dammit, my dad is a stupid fucking asshole. I still have time before I'm supposed to go to bed, but he's forcing me off the computer because I accidentally knocked the fucking mouse off the desk. God dammit, I can't fucking wait until I've moved out, and I rarely have to see that shithead. Anyways, that means the end of the post.

Until next time,
LIFE SUPPORT IS FOR GIRLS!

Bah!

Well, I'm updating. Yep. I haven't heard from my gf/ex-gf/whatever in three days, and it's worrying me. I'm simply not letting her break up with me. That sounds kinda dumb, but yeah. It's really hard for her, this relationship, her life, just everything. She needs somebody to be there for her, emotionally, if not physically. If anybody reading this is considering getting into an on-line relationship, DON'T! Not unless you completely understand that it will be INCREDIBLY hard, and there's a good chance it won't last. But yeah. Not letting the relationship end.

I'm getting worried....Haven't heard from her in three days, last time I hadn't heard from her in that long, she had kissed another guy, and then broke up with me so she wouldn't hurt me anymore. But me? I'm a masochist. I don't care if she hurts me, I want to be with her. It's a helluva lot harder now...She had to move back in with her mom, and doesn't have a computer or internet. On-line relationships are a bitch when one of the people can't get on-line except from libraries. But there is no way in hell I'm giving up on this relationship. Just today, I was wondering why I was bothering with all of this...Then I started thinking about how it used to be...How it could be again...When we got to talk all the time, and when I would get on-line and have an email there just reminding me that she loves me...It can be like that again, I just know it can! But yeah...If we can just last on-line for another year, WITH visiting...I want to visit at Christmas, and maybe even the WHOLE summer...But yeah...Sorry, this is a mainly relationship-ranty post. I really miss her...And this is a good place to just let loose my feelings...I really bottle everything up inside, this is my way of letting it all out. I can say anything I want in here, without fear of anything bad happening. If anything I say offends anybody, THEN GO FUCK YOURSELF. That's my policy. This is my blog, I say whatever the fuck I want. I could be racist, sexist, anything I want in here. Of course, I hate racists, and I'm not sexist at all, but I'm just making a point.

But really, what I'm worrying about most of all with Eva, is that she may have killed herself. She's clinically depressed, chemical imbalance in the brain, so it worries me...I've believed that I've been in love with her for about six months, and just over the past few days, I've realized that it's completely true. I am in love with this woman, and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I'm willing to move to Texas while she finished her education just so I can keep the relationship going. I HATE the US. I HATE Texas. I hate those racist, sexist pricks, especially in the Bible Belt, WHERE SHE LIVES, but I'm still willing to move there to be with her! I'm pathetic, I really am...I'm a hopeless romantic, too...*sighs the sigh of a hopeless romantic* I think this is enough ranting for now...I shall rant more later!

Hiya.

Hey there, sportsfans. Yes, I assume that blogging is now a sport.

I've decided to start posting in here more. It'll give me an outlet for ranting away my feelings so I can be an emotionless husk. That way, I can think logically all the time, without those accursed feelings getting in the way.

Let's see, what's going on in MY life...My girlfriend broke up with me last Thursday. Yep. Kissed some other guy, and dumped me because she didn't want to hurt me anymore. It hurts like a bitch just thinking about her kissing some other guy, but I understand why she did it. Maybe I'm a fool, but I'm trying to get her back. Yep. I've emailed her a few times since, and I just flat out asked if she was willing to keep this going in my last email. I'm sick and tired of not knowing how my own relationship is going, if I should call her my girlfriend, or my ex-girlfriend, or if I can ever have a future with her. But yeah.

Okay, now I'm gonna move on to other parts of my life. I'm gonna speak bluntly a lot, I don't care who reads this. I've recently discovered that it can be a boost to self-esteem to have a very attractive girl acknowledge your existance. There's a girl that sits in front of me in Data Management, very attractive. She reminds me of my gf/ex-gf/whatever. Long, brown hair, very cute. But yeah, she, the girl that sits next to me, and some other guy ended up spending the entire period on Friday talking. Fun stuff. It kind of surprised me, though. I consider myself to be ugly and unpopular, it comes as a shock when a cute girl even speaks to me, let alone when a beautiful one talks to me. Of course, I'm looking too much into this. But it just doesn't happen to me. Oh, speaking of girls, I made a new friend. Her name's Sam. I met her on IRC, an internet chat dealy (for those of you who don't know), on a nerd-channel. Good stuff. She's pretty cool, she and I have been talking somewhat often since we met on Friday. But yeah. Moving on from girl stuff...Although I could easily lapse back into this subject...

Let's talk about school. Let's see, first period. First period is communication technology, we make movies. Of course, I got the shitty-ass camera over the weekend with the battery that couldn't hold a motherfucking charge. And does anybody notice it before I take it out to get my filming finished for the project that's due mid-week? Oh, hell no. That would be too...convenient. Nope, things had to fuck up, things ALWAYS have to fuck up. My life just seems to be a series of fuck-ups with a few good things happening randomly. Yay. But moving on...Second period. I don't do anything in that class. I just spend it drinking coke and freaking people out. But that's fun. Third period...My teacher moved to Australia. Yep. So now we've got a new teacher, who seems to be totally cool. Unfortunately, he was teaching another class at the time. So now they're freaking out because they're getting a hard-ass teacher...I feel sorry for them. And now, fourth. 'ologies. That's an easy course...I don't do much work there either, but I still seem to get good marks, for whatever reason. But yeah. That's schoolin'.

What's happening at home, you ask? Well, let me tell you. Nothing. My dad's working more, being home less, my mom's working part-time 'cause she's got Multiple Sclerosis and can't work full-time, and we don't have much money. And I need to get a job, because I want to move in with my best friend of thirteen years. But yeah. I need a job.

And my friends all seem to be finding religion. What the fuck is up with that? God, they start going to a church-run youth group, with used to have NOTHING to do with religion, and now they're Christians. Fuck that. There's no way in hell anybody's converting me. And people have tried. Oh, how they've tried! No, I'm not going Christian. Why should I? They just tell me everything I do is a sin, and that I'm going to hell. Fuck that, I get that enough from my friends. I think I've ranted enough for today....

Until next time...
BATMAN IS NOT A MOTHERFUCKING SUPERHERO!
Ciao,
Kataron

Updating!!!

Well, it's been a little while since I posted on here...I figure I should add something now, mainly because I have nothing better to do. I've barely spoken to my girlfriend lately, and it's REALLY hard to keep up a relationship when you only get an email a day, and have only talked to them four times in the past three weeks...Yeah, it's tough. The relationship isn't going to last if this keeps up, but I'm not here to ramble on about my relationship right now, although I probably will anyway. Let's see...This is my blog, about my life, so what's new? Well, I think I have ADD. I took some of my friend's ADD medication today, and it totally calmed me down. I usually can't even pay attention in class nowadays...But yeah. There isn't much going on. Oh, I started filming for a movie today for my Communication Technology class. I'm doing a post-apocalyptic Sci-fi movie. Good stuff. There's Cow People in it. Yep. Good times, good times. I'm burning a CD right now with random anime music and stuff that I want to consider putting into it. Well, it's mainly for the Chrono Cross opening, which I want to use, but there's no point in having a CD with JUST that, is there? Nope.

I'm amused. I seem to be good at giving advice. I've been giving people advice on stuff lately, like one girl, I've given her a lot of relationship advice lately. I've been considering making some sort of email for advice, and putting up fliers around the school for people to send me their problems, and I give them advice. Yeah. I have no life, so nothing better to do. *shrug* I just seem to be good with advice. I guess it's my logic. I'm very logical. And empathetic, that could help with the advice. I can sympathize with people, which helps me better advise them.

Woot! LAN party tomorrow! I'm psyched. I just hope I can bring my mom's laptop...Otherwise, I don't think I'd be able to go, my desktop is a six-year-old piece of shit. Pentium 2. Stop laughing, damn you! It was fucking state of the art when it came out...Then, lo and behold, a month later, the pentium 3 comes out! Where's the justice?!?! There isn't any, dammit! I blame Bill Gates, that pompous ass. But moving on...

I'm not really sure what to ramble about now....I need something to complain about or something...lol. Well, not something bad, but I was talking to my ex for a while today. We ended on good terms, still friends and such. She hasn't been on-line like...at all lately, she was moving or somethin', didn't have internet. But she got back on-line today, so we got to talk for a bit. Fun stuff. I don't have enough people on my MSN that I actually talk to...If I did, I wouldn't have to resort to THIS right now. I'm only doing this because I have nothing better to do. Man, I can type fast! And I don't make many mistakes, either! Huzzah! Yeah. I'm good. Sorry, just noticing how fast my hands are moving...It's interesting to watch.

Now onto the girlfriend stuff...In an email she sent today, apparently she's been spending the night at some guy's house. They're really good friends and stuff, and the guy's mom cooks for her and stuff. BUT the guy might have feelings for her, as he was just dumped by his fiancee, and Eva could be his attempt at a rebound. She, of course, doesn't want that, but I sure as hell don't like her staying at that guy's house! It just bugs the crap out of me...I don't really have a good reason, but I dislike this guy. Then again, I dislike most of the guys she's around in real life, as we still haven't met irl...We might meet at Christmas, but at the moment, I'm not completely sure that the relationship will last that long. *sigh* I just don't know...She doesn't have net at her place, so she can't get on at night, and this seems to be working for her. She wanted a 'break', now she's got it. But she seems to want it to continue...And I know that our relationship will not last if it keeps up...I'm just not sure, I really don't know what I'm going to do...I love this girl, I really do, but it's just so hard...

I think this has been enough ranting for now...My CD's done, so I'ma stop now.

Until next time,
Hail Kataron

Batman. Alleged Superhero.

I'm just here to set the record straight. BATMAN IS NOT A FUCKING SUPERHERO! An average hero, maybe, but nothing super! He's just a rich bastard that fights crime! I know this is going WAY off from my previous posts, but it's bugging me. He could NEVER be considered a superhero if he didn't have so much damn money. That's all he's got. Sure, he's smart, but what can you expect with all that money? Probably went to the best damn university he could. And what's he doing it for? To avenge is parents? Get a fucking life! They're dead, and instead of dealing with it, he's fighting crime in some stupid costume. BAH!

Feh...

Well, it took somebody I barely know finding my blog to get me to update, but here I am...Not like I have anything better to do. I'm torn between video games, trying to decide what to play. You think I need a life, do you? I think you need to eat shit and die. I wonder if anybody from 2600 will read this, after the link was mentioned...Feh. Well, since I've bitched previously about my gf, I figure I should put a little update on that. We haven't spoken on MSN or on the phone since Friday, in class. I got caught on MSN by a teacher and bitched at. Also 'cause I changed all the names of his class folders on the Shared Drive at school...That'll teach him to mess with me. But yeah, haven't spoken to her in a while. I don't think she wants to relationship to continue... I guess I'm just gonna be alone. Again. *sigh* I guess I should just get used to that. I can't get a girlfriend in real life...Ye Gods! There are people! Reading my blog! I'm creeped out, I seriously didn't expect anybody to read it...And I'm finding it extremely hard to concentrate...I'ma just end this now and try to remember to post again later...