Ranting and Raving.

Erg...Just had another fight with my girlfriend, the worst yet...I don't know if our relationship is going to last...Okay, first of all, I am incredibly strongly against drugs. Drugs fuck up peoples lives, anybody that does drugs is a complete moron. I'm not even going to say 'in my opinion', because this is my blog, if you don't like the way I think, then fuck you, get the fuck out of my blog. Clearly, I feel VERY strongly against them. And she smoked pot twice, in two days. And she mentioned that a friend of hers smoked pot, and asked her to watch in case somebody come, and I asked her if she smoked any, and she said no. She lied to me! I specifically asked her if she did that, and she lied to me, and told me she didn't. That was worse than the fact that she actually did it. But she's just so selfish...She thinks of only herself, doesn't care about how others feel, how her stupid and irresponsible reactions are making others, such as myself, feel. She says I'm too controlling, and I'm taking away her independance, which is important to her, and she's not going to change for me. And if she's not going to change, why should I put any effort into changing myself? I can be very controlling, yes, but what she doesn't understand is that it's for her own damn good! I tell her not to stay up late, to take her depression medication, not to do stupid shit like smoke pot, not to talk to guys who flirt with her, and want more than friendship, stuff like that. I care about her more than I care about myself, and it seems that she cares more about herself than she cares about me. She's said many times that she loves me, but I'm beginning to seriously doubt that. If she loved me, would she hurt me so much? Would she lie to me, and do things that she knows I feel so strongly against? I've told her that if she does drugs, I can't respect her, and I can't be with somebody I don't respect, but she does them anyway. She also told me she hadn't done any drugs like that since grade nine, three or four years back, and I'm beginning to doubt that, too. She's seen drugs fuck up her dad's life, and I don't understand why she's letting them into hers. She says that she can use them responsibly, not too often, and I think that's complete bullshit. Wanna know what responsible is? NOT DOING THEM AT ALL! Doing them, even once a month isn't being responsible! Stress, no stress, it doesn't fucking matter! Drugs are bad, end of fucking story, I can't be with somebody that does them, because I can't respect anybody that does them. And as I said before, I can't be with somebody I don't respect. She's bringing it upon herself, with her selfishness, and her lying...She told me that she was planning to tell me all day, but I honestly don't know if I can believe even that...It...It just really hurts...This is the second person I've opened my heart up to, and the second that's torn it apart...If our relationship doesn't work out, I'm through with dating for a very, very long time. I'm paranoid. That means I never let anybody get too close, unless I feel that I can really trust them. And she's not the first person to stab me in the back...I really just don't know how to feel about her anymore, what to do...I just don't know...

Bleh.

Hey hey, random people who don't know me, don't care about me, and probably won't even read this. I've been going through random blogs, found some stupid Conservative to argue with, and a bunch of depressed people. Here's my motto: 'Life sucks, then you die. Deal with it'. Yep. Basically, life's gonna throw a bunch of shit at you, and it's your challenge to get through it all, and find something better at the end. Is there something at the end? Who knows. Hopefully, after dealing with all the shit of my life, I'll be able to settle down with my girlfriend...For those of you who don't know me, which is pretty much all of you, I met my girlfriend over the net, we live in different countries, and we've never met in real life. Whether or not you consider this to be a relationship, I don't care. People at school said you can't be dating somebody you've never met, and I say that's bullshit. If you agree with somebody that you're dating, YOU'RE DATING. Sorry if I seem kinda pissy, I'm just a bit out of sorts. I haven't talked to my girlfriend in about two days now, save for a few emails. No IM's, no phone calls...It's starting to get to me. Bah. Stupid school and job...She's got a job, I don't. But since she's got a job, and college, she goes to classes all morning, and works all afternoon...No time for Nate in there...If you're new to the blog, that's me. Nate. Yep. I complain about stuff. Get used to it. Anyways, I'm depressed and annoyed that I can barely talk to her anymore. She's asking for the link for this, so I'm going to post it on the RP forum she runs, so maybe I'll get a comment or two...If not, meh. I don't do this for comments, I don't do this so people with pity me, I do this because I have nothing better to do, and it helps to get stuff off my chest. What else to ramble about...Ah, I've got something. I plan on donating blood on Friday, and there were people in my class today talking about giving blood. Then they left us all fortune cookies with the fortune 'You will save a life' inside. What the fuck is wrong with them? Is it just me, or is that the dumbest thing ever?! Pah! They tasted terrible, too. Mrrf. Also, some of my friends have begun to annoy me. I have one friend, Eric, who's begun to spend a lot more time with the general group, and therefore a lot less time with me. Who's in the general group, you ask? Why, only a bunch of naive, ignorant vegetarians, who are always happy. Well, for some of us, the world isn't all sunshine and fun! It just pisses me off. One day, they'll open their eyes and see that the world is a lot worse than they think. And how they'll take it, I just don't know. I barely spend any time with them anymore. I spend my mornings, lunches, and after school on various computers, doing random things. Posting on RP forums...Playing on-line games...Writing emails....etc. Basic nerdy things that nerdy people do...I really need a life. But I'm not going to get one. My life is my computer, and my video games. I don't need much else. Anyways, I've become quite ranty...I should probably end this...I wonder if anybody other than my girlfriend will read this...

Sword-Chucks, yo!

Heya. Got bored, so...second post!
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Fine. Don't applaud. I don't need you! I don't need any of you! But I'll continue the post nonetheless! Bah, stupid homework...I've got some more questions to answer for my Change in Society class...Fun course, but she checks homework too often. She's done it twice now, and both times, it hasn't been done...So I promised to have both done for Monday...Bleh. Man...I like video games. And I mean, wow. Video games are awesome! Final Fantasy is one of the best game series of all time...But it totally went downhill after FFX...And then the sequel to that, FFX-2, was terrible! I refuse to even dignify it as a Final Fantasy. The good ones are FF7, FF9, and the old classics...Now THOSE are games....Yeah, I ramble about video games a lot. Mostly Playstation games, 'cause my computer is about...six years old, so it doesn't run anything new. It hasn't been upgraded at all...Ever...But that's okay. I have a PS2. And friends with good computers. I have an account on a game called 'City of Heroes' at a friend's house, I've got a Mutation Blaster named Kataron. Oh yeah. He rules. Mutation is his original, so how he got the powers, and he's a blaster, so he shoots blasts from his hands. Hence, the blaster. Yep. He's got electricity powers, so he shoots lightning from his hands! It's great. I wander around, fighting evil, and defending the streets of Paragon City! There's all sorts of crazy enemies...Like...Nazis, the Mob, weirdos with super-powers, generic street gangs, ninjas, aliens, and THOSE DAMN DIRTY ROBOTS! I hate those robots, oh, how I hate them...With their clanking gears, and electricity blasts...Oh, they deserve death! But they're not alive, so they can't really die...But still...Blowing them up is uber-fun. Die, robots, die! Anywho...This is enough rambling for now...

Until next time,
HAIL KATARON!

Post the first!

All righty. I now officially have a blog. Huzzah! Well, I had one before on another site, but this site is cooler...And I have no life, so I figured I'd make a blog. Oh yeah. Now I can keep the world up-to-date on my boring life! I pity those who are reading this...For my life is truly boring! I'm just going to ramble on about video games and the like, and my girlfriend. Not necessarily in that order. So here I am...Let's see...Where to start...Ah yes, I'll tell you a bit about myself. I'm Nate. I'm 16....wait...17. I turned 17 three days ago, still getting used to the number...I have that problem with new years too, I have to get used to writing the new ones...Anyways...I'm 17, in grade 12, and I'm a huge nerd. I have no life, I despise natural light. Oh yeah. I'm good. I like video games, and I love the internet. Oh, and my girlfriend, too. Who I happened to meet OVER the internet, on an RP forum...Yeah, I like RP forums, too. Good stuff. I do that on my computer when my brother's on the Playstation 2. We don't have a very good computer, so we can't run any good games. But yeah, I spend most of my time on MSN, RP boards, and webcomic sites. And playing old games that I have on my computer. Mostly old Super Nintendo games...I recently acquired an old copy of the original Final Fantasy...Good stuff. Anyways, it's 1 in the morning, I think I'm going to go sleep...Sleep good...Waste of time, but good...I'll post again tomorrow! If I remember that I have a blog...

Until next time,
HAIL KATARON!